All the feelings...

[~Lioness~]

I had been in denial and it's amazing what is on the other side of that. Wow �� ��

Lots of loss I couldn't take it in I couldn't feel it I COUDLNT see it. Anything but to see truth. See anything but the truth. ��

Then... It all comes bubbling up in ME...

I lost a lot. Yet, in the end I had to come face to face with myself. I had to lose them all to find me and the truth. Life is not so complicated now, yet its still very sad to think of the people I lost along the way to nowhere. I see my errors clearly. I've been a real a*hole. I have deep anger issues I never forgave because I denied the truth a spot in my life.

I have been wrong, and I feel like sh. I take responsibility for my actions. I did everyone wrong in some way. The reason I feel like * is my doing. But it's just life..we all learn our lessons, some the easy way, and some , like me , take the hard way cause we didn't know better. I now value the people in my life. Including me... And I have so much to process. Letting it all in to my reality is really difficult . But not impossible.

So I feel sorry for being such a a*hole but I don't expect you to come back to me. I pray you find peace and that you and everyone forgives me. Cause I've been awful. No one ever deserved that. Damn, I'm such a difficult person. I'm working on being stable and calm... I hope I can heal my relationships, they've been wrecked. Life has been wrecked. Big time.

It starts here and now... With me. And with not denying the truth.

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Good bye for now. Have a good day if you can, want to , peace