I can't help myself but to still love her

[Rsandee]

It's been three years and after hearing my family and friends' advice and to know I have to get over it, I can't help myself at moments like this. This is a rare moment for me to be able to open my heart and show my feelings. I have tried to bottle them up, to hide them, to work through them and to let them go. I can't help it. My life is changed. How am I supposed to move on after something like this? I am telling this story because there is no outlet for me, my story is not a simple one to tell. I loved someone with a broken heart. A girl surrounded by walls, I was too late after all. The damage had already been done, she never wanted to trust another guy again. But she did, in me, and I trusted her. A decision I'll never regret but cost me so much, my dignity, my heart, everything. In the end she couldn't do it, she couldn't let me into her life, she couldn't take the leap. After two years of this dance she ripped off the bandaid and she let me go. I was to enjoy the single life, be young, make memories. All I ever wanted was to be with her. It's been three years and I have taken her advice, but at moments like this.... I can't help but to be sentimental. I didn't see her much, two countries would almost always seperate us, but I felt like she was with me all the time. Even now, after I cast her out of my life, after we said the most horrible things to each other, sick of the drama and intensity. Even now I feel like she's with me somehow. I know it's something in the past, another step to climb. I just need to trust something else so beautiful will cross my path, as it has in my path. I just have to believe.

As I try to move on.

[lostsoul13]

The journey can be hard- lot of running and conflicts even for those that done ‘run’ like my twin flame journey reincarnation and things in life get in the way- it’s easy to do a small gathering but there’s more than 50 of us including the children- which take thirty plus up +

They are in suspended animation ~ it’s gets harder and harder everyday- I’m on this journey by the self at the moment- they all have slipped off to sleep…

Slumber gets you to A to B quicker~ I know this as the hours are seconds at night fall…

Getting a big enough house to fit all of us- we would need a palace.

I know it’s sometimes in the future ~ and you have to keep hope that your also belonging to your flame in the future ~ there’s nothing that can beat the future- that’s where the truth is, where you can lie no more—-

Working towards that can be hard especially with reincarnation and things that life chucks at us…

You must give your self time to grieve and know even the ones that want to be together are driven apart until the future | there’s some hope in that silver linings…

Originally Posted by Rsandee

As I try to move on.

I am so sorry....... I hope you can feel happier soon!!!

[Rsandee]

Originally Posted by lostsoul13

I know it’s sometimes in the future ~ and you have to keep hope that your also belonging to your flame in the future ~ there’s nothing that can beat the future- that’s where the truth is, where you can lie no more—-

But isn't it true that the process of letting go accelerates it all? I'm going to paraphrase this quote but if you let go of your heart and it returns to you out of free will, it's yours forever right?

[~Lioness~]

It is sweet that you still love her... I still love my twin flame.

Hold on to that love. Love is always the answer.

[lostsoul13]

Originally Posted by Rsandee

But isn't it true that the process of letting go accelerates it all? I'm going to paraphrase this quote but if you let go of your heart and it returns to you out of free will, it's yours forever right?

Definitely, it defeats the favours of going out of your mind and endless worrying about it or obsessing over the out come…