In 1996 ..I doodled in class and wrote things down ~I drifted into my private space ~ As the Uni lecturer was talking to the class
I wrote ...about sun-flowers ..seeds..gathering my seeds and planting them.
My path changed direction that year ..My father died...And I ended a long marriage that was not healthy.
My best friend sent me cards every year with Sunflowers...In 1999 my youngest son was born.. he is all Love a gorgeous soul.
..That was the year also my best friend ( an established fabulous artist). Painted as a surprise an enormous Oil painting of Sunflower's which as I sit on my lap top I face this painting each night.
Birds played an important part in my path .. ( other factual events).
Tick Tocks ( the dandelion ) was a huge part of many wishes in my child hood.
My Parents Wedding anniversary is today..Both my mum and Dad are now together in spirit.
I met a person late in 1996 ..my path widened and grew very deep...this person has weaved in and out my life ..I have grown since a recent event..this person is in hiding..that is ok.. I am sad as I love.
I realize also that we can love ..yet some chose to stay where they are in their minds that then develops a difference in energy.
..I read .. the parable of the mustard seed...sowing seeds and planting them...Its matthew 13.
My eldest son born many many years prior is mathew born on the 13th.
I have a Tattoo.. ( I had the Tattoo done whilst my sis was dying..so she could see her flower..My sisters death is..2 yrs on the 14th ). I elected 2 humming birds for some reason?
There is so much more I can say ..but its not a novel and my short story has become long.
Its a very difficult time at the moment ..for many reasons..I try not to think but accept...I am sad inside and I try not to be.
Since yesterday lyrics from some song keep playing in my mind..
Hours ago I opened a page and saw an amazing humming bird..its on my FB wall..
Tonight..I googled the tune on u-tube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJFmM2gGhqY
I hope things improve for you soon. 
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