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Originally Posted by Izz
It sounds and feels like he had good intentions towards you
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Thank you, I hope so. I guess in a way because even if it would know for sure have been true that it would have been him that would have been doing remote view and/or the astral travel - I have not felt as if it was then done by an enemy. If I was to have met him on the street I would not be one to not say hi, I would not be one to ignore him or avoid seeing, talking to him, I would be fine with that. However I do know 100% that my romantic set of feelings for him died a long time ago, long before I fell for someone else and because we were still around each other enough at least I was confident that that type of emotions would not return. But he was a friend. And I was a friend to him. I do think we did try to support each other all the while too keeping a somewhat distance but to be frank it was me who took most distance (as I did not have those romantic feelings left perhaps). I would for sure think it would have been wrong of him to do remote viewing or visit me in the astrals, but I would not feel threaten by it.
I think it was impossible for us to untangle the whole break up scenario and that could have been what was unfinished business. Plus could be he was bitter later in life that he had made a different set of life choices than what he could have but still I am sure at the time he made them they were the right life choices he thought he was making, you can't go back.
Also in a way, out of jealousy, I think my luv and my fear of loosing my luv or making him angry, stood in my own personal growth way, as I could then not finish what needed to be finished, as the time when my ex or friend called to apologize and wanted to talk some more, or the time he wrote the letter, it wasn't about a romantic set of longing, but I think a longing to close things the right way between us. That would not bring my romantic set of feelings back again, that I knew, regardless if I had met the psychopath-boyfriend or my luv, those had nothing to do with that, it was never about that.
When I was in the relationship with the psychopath and later my luv I would tell him we could not even be casual friends and that I was in a serious relationship and I said that out of respect of the relationship I was in and because I did not want any misunderstandings and I did not want to jeapordize anything because even if I knew he was nowadays just a casual friend to me, someone I had no romantic feelings for, I still knew we were exes and that could of course be seen as a problem, and I did not want that kind of trouble. Also for his sake - if, when he was in a relationship I would never think of calling him or anything, I never did that, i remember one time hearing about it and hoping he would stay away from the drinking and that he would be happy with her, I was functioning more as a friend or family member than I suppose an ex.
However we would have a kind of joking-style with us, for instance we both knew someone and one time we were again bumping into each other because we knew this same person and he was there for practical reasons and I for another and I remember asking him if he wanted poison with that in his coffee , it was our way of joking, but the person we both knew - also knew we had been a couple one time ago, long time ago, and my first ex/friend would laugh a little, smile too and say no thanks he was good without but thanks for asking, and I would be like "Are you sure?" as if i really wanted him to take that poison.So we could sort of joke about having been exes and me pretending to still be bitter about it when I wasn't.
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