It’s Like a Tapestry… Right?

[Swirly_Mysnic]

I’ve been struggling with my heart. As I write this post I’m terribly sad. I got to a point, where my heart had been consistently open, connected with the oneness. Completely wrapped in peace, stillness, and love- Making some significant breakthroughs on the spiritual path .These past few weeks, I’ve been having an array of emotions, curiosities, and calls for exploring. I woke up one morning and fasted for the first time because it felt like the right thing to do, reading some religious texts some for the first time and rereading others I hadn’t touched in nearly a decade. I found myself getting distracted with hours of negative content last night on social media. And today I’m feeling very much in my separateness… This sadness comes from the warmth, peace, stillness, and love that I experienced just weeks ago.

This shows me that I still have much to learn and that I’m growing. And this despair that I’m feeling is because I yearn to be connected to the oneness. I’m continuing to make incremental improvements in the areas that resistance exists. It’s the wholeness that I had that feels quite distant. I notice a heaviness, fear. I recognize that I’m grasping for something that I shouldn’t be. Furthermore, I know and understand that the oneness is already within me. This is the journey.

I’m curious if there are others out there who also experience the ups and downs, the ins and outs of connection and what are some methods that you use to bring yourself back to the loving awareness?

[Miss Hepburn]

LOL!...when I read, " I found myself getting distracted with hours of negative content last night on social media. ''
My eyes got wide - as in, "He did what? Oh no..."

Well, what I do, since you asked, is pretty simple.
I humbly talk to God -" Lord, I know I'm having this icky feeling because I'm supposed to learn something. Thank you -
I accept this, because, I KNOW You have only my good in mind."
And then I smile..accepting the lesson.

And by golly - it goes away fast.
I have found -Do not think of yourself so much and the passing feelings you may have sometimes ..."I'm feeling love...I'm not feeling love.."
Only desire to please your Father/ Creator God Who's always there...listening.

*This is just ME*..others might think I'm nuts and would not do this...but it sure works for ME!
I have a close relationship with my Maker/Friend. :)

[Swirly_Mysnic]

Thank you, Miss Hepburn. I appreciate your words and approach below. I think a social media detox is in order to recenter myself and let the sediment in my mind settle s bit. Excellent reminder about not clinging to emotion or thoughts.