It never ends

~Lioness~ · #1 18-08-2019, 06:22 PM

So there's this person I've been in love with for a long time... it's a long story but she sparked a intense awakening in me... the psychic connection was so strong at times that I could feel her hugging me , kissing me, holding my hand, even making love to me. I felt so confused about everything and still am. It's been roughly a decade since we spoke, but my heart still wants, loves, and misses her. I will always love and cherish her and her life, as I think she saved mine. Had I not met this person, I would probably not be alive today. For some reasons. I miss her so much that it's hard to contain it. The love and depth of feelings I have for her are all consuming, and overwhelming. I have no way of contacting this person anymore. I don't want to accept that I'm not meant to be with anyone else for my whole life because that sounds awful, but, at the same time, even when I am in a healthy relationship, I am still consumed by the love and longing. Actually, it gets 10 times stronger when I'm in a relationship as i currently am. It makes it hard, cause the love for the past person is stronger than my current love, even though there is love here.

Do I have to deal with this forever? Is there a way to move on? It feels impossible. I thought I had moved on times in the past, and recently, but now that I'm with someone else, the feelings and connection and stuffs are getting stronger again.

I just don't know what to do. ,

utopiandreamchild · #2 18-08-2019, 06:45 PM

Do what evers in your heart. Love is the answer.

JosephineB · #3 18-08-2019, 06:51 PM

Is it not possible to be together at all, or is it the fact you don't know a way of getting in contact?

Realm Ki · #4 18-08-2019, 08:07 PM

My advice is to try and reconnect. The reality of a person has a way of breaking the spell.

If the person is dead, in the case of one of my loves I thought so for a very long time - then it gets really tricky, but it's still doable.

I'd really go out of my way: aunts summer house address, high-school friends at a company you remember? Etc etc.

Except of course if you know this person DOES NOT want contact with you, then you've got to work on the connection itself... Good luck!

butterflybella · #5 18-08-2019, 09:18 PM

Sounds like my connection with my twin. If you're confused about who this person is to you, I would have to say that she's your twin. 100%. I understand letting go is difficult, but it's one of the most important lessons of the journey. Just accept that you have this connection with her, give it to God, and live your life. If this connection is meant to move forward, Spirit will give you or her a nudge. I would talk to my significant other about this too. She or he might not understand or be able to help you much, but it's important that you don't hide this forever. I tried, and it ate me up inside. It might help to make letting go a little easier or help your significant other to at least try to understand what you're going through and relieve the burden on your chest. Give it a go.

traveler1001 · #6 19-08-2019, 02:05 PM

Hello BlueSkiez
My advice to you is to meditate and focus on your question. If you meditate and focus on either your current partner or your twin, you'd get certain feelings for each one.
I did this meditation when I was confused between my TF and a past life Lover. The result was great and gave me the answer I wanted.

Or another thing that can help you. Just think positive for these ppl. Send them light and love so this confused feeling you have will soon disappear :)

Wish you the best!

Eternal Flame · #7 20-08-2019, 03:49 AM

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Originally Posted by BlueSkiez

I just don't know what to do. ,

Love the one you are with.

Use the past love as a battery to fuel yourself and this current love.

I feel the one that awakens us stands as the initial muse, but we are meant to love more than one person in our lives. True, unconditional love.

It's not about a cookie reward, or a nookie reward.

John32241 · #8 20-08-2019, 07:24 AM

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Originally Posted by BlueSkiez

Do I have to deal with this forever? Is there a way to move on? It feels impossible. I thought I had moved on times in the past, and recently, but now that I'm with someone else, the feelings and connection and stuffs are getting stronger again.

I just don't know what to do. ,

Hi,

I sense that there is resistance within you related to your current relationship. That there are some unresolved issues.

It could be that the love bond you had with the person you do not see any more represents your gay side and that this current relationship kind of denies that such a thing is valid and blessed.

John

BigJohn · #9 21-08-2019, 06:15 AM

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Originally Posted by BlueSkiez

So there's this person I've been in love with for a long time... it's a long story but she sparked a intense awakening in me... the psychic connection was so strong at times that I could feel her hugging me , kissing me, holding my hand, even making love to me. I felt so confused about everything and still am. It's been roughly a decade since we spoke, but my heart still wants, loves, and misses her. I will always love and cherish her and her life, as I think she saved mine. Had I not met this person, I would probably not be alive today. For some reasons. I miss her so much that it's hard to contain it. The love and depth of feelings I have for her are all consuming, and overwhelming. I have no way of contacting this person anymore. I don't want to accept that I'm not meant to be with anyone else for my whole life because that sounds awful, but, at the same time, even when I am in a healthy relationship, I am still consumed by the love and longing. Actually, it gets 10 times stronger when I'm in a relationship as i currently am. It makes it hard, cause the love for the past person is stronger than my current love, even though there is love here.

Do I have to deal with this forever? Is there a way to move on? It feels impossible. I thought I had moved on times in the past, and recently, but now that I'm with someone else, the feelings and connection and stuffs are getting stronger again.

I just don't know what to do. ,

Look at it as a really great time period.
I have had relationships and I still think of some of them. Nice to have great memories. Sometimes I think what could have been..........

BigJohn · #10 21-08-2019, 06:15 AM

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Originally Posted by BlueSkiez

So there's this person I've been in love with for a long time... it's a long story but she sparked a intense awakening in me... the psychic connection was so strong at times that I could feel her hugging me , kissing me, holding my hand, even making love to me. I felt so confused about everything and still am. It's been roughly a decade since we spoke, but my heart still wants, loves, and misses her. I will always love and cherish her and her life, as I think she saved mine. Had I not met this person, I would probably not be alive today. For some reasons. I miss her so much that it's hard to contain it. The love and depth of feelings I have for her are all consuming, and overwhelming. I have no way of contacting this person anymore. I don't want to accept that I'm not meant to be with anyone else for my whole life because that sounds awful, but, at the same time, even when I am in a healthy relationship, I am still consumed by the love and longing. Actually, it gets 10 times stronger when I'm in a relationship as i currently am. It makes it hard, cause the love for the past person is stronger than my current love, even though there is love here.

Do I have to deal with this forever? Is there a way to move on? It feels impossible. I thought I had moved on times in the past, and recently, but now that I'm with someone else, the feelings and connection and stuffs are getting stronger again.

I just don't know what to do. ,

Look at it as a really great time period.
I have had relationships and I still think of some of them. Nice to have great memories. Sometimes I think what could have been..........