Bad feelings about my passed grandpa. Thoughts?

MyKindOfLullaby · #1 09-09-2013, 06:46 AM

Hello, I'm wondering what's happening here and how I can stop it.

So my grandpa and I were very close. He passed away when I was about 13.

I always thought that if he was still here, everything would be so much better. But I recently found out he used to be involved in hard drugs. This disappointed me greatly. I used to find comfort in thinking about him now every time I think about him, I get a weird feeling that someone is here with me and the feelings I get from them are not happy. I have these feelings right now. I feel uncomfortable, sad, and very anxious.

A few weeks ago I was talking to my grandpa out loud and just asked for a sign that he was with me. Nothing happened for a few minutes so I just continued to coax him into giving me a sign or thought that he was with me. But I continued to have these bad feelings. I actually ran out of my room because I felt so scared of the feelings that were around me.

Does anyone know what's happening? Do you think it's my grandpa that's giving me bad feelings? Is he mad at me perhaps? Thank you SO much for any advice.

#2 09-09-2013, 07:39 AM

I don't think he's mad, maybe unhappy knowing your feelings have changed, so the negative feelings you're getting could just be his sadness. Send him Love and forgiveness. You know you don't have to be scared. It's a good idea though to always protect yourself.

MyKindOfLullaby · #3 09-09-2013, 08:07 AM

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Originally Posted by primrose

I don't think he's mad, maybe unhappy knowing your feelings have changed, so the negative feelings you're getting could just be his sadness. Send him Love and forgiveness. You know you don't have to be scared. It's a good idea though to always protect yourself.

Thank you. I should even protect myself when talking to passed love ones? It's weird because the feelings are strong. It makes me scared to think about him anymore.

desert rat · #4 09-09-2013, 03:42 PM

He may be there , or he may of gone on to one of the astral realms . One can imageion that some one is there when they are not . You can talk to them with words like , hell is only a myth , go to the withe light , meet up with your loved ones in the astral garden .

#5 09-09-2013, 04:32 PM

I should even protect myself when talking to passed love ones?

Yes it's a good idea as you don't know who else is around. Keep sending out Love and light, you'll be fine. Try some positive affirmations to help you.

MyKindOfLullaby · #6 09-09-2013, 08:08 PM

Thank you for your help! I'll try those things and see how it goes.

Native spirit · #7 09-09-2013, 09:31 PM

Your grandfather could be around you but he wouldnt give you negative thoughts,it could be that you now think of him differently since being told he was on drugs, this would upset him to know your feelings have changed towards him, if you never saw any sign that he was on drugs and was always ok with you,remember him that way,
your grandfather always thought a lot of you and you are never far away from his thoughts, the negative feelings could be yours knowing you found out something that you didnt know before. and why anyone would tell you he was on hard drugs now i really cant say.

Namaste

MyKindOfLullaby · #8 10-09-2013, 04:32 AM

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Originally Posted by Native spirit

Your grandfather could be around you but he wouldnt give you negative thoughts,it could be that you now think of him differently since being told he was on drugs, this would upset him to know your feelings have changed towards him, if you never saw any sign that he was on drugs and was always ok with you,remember him that way,
your grandfather always thought a lot of you and you are never far away from his thoughts, the negative feelings could be yours knowing you found out something that you didnt know before. and why anyone would tell you he was on hard drugs now i really cant say.

Namaste

That makes a lot of sense, thank you. The conversation about him and doing drugs is a long story. complicated to explain, especially over the internet. So once I start remembering him how he was, it should get better?

#9 10-09-2013, 04:54 AM

That makes a lot of sense, thank you. The conversation about him and doing drugs is a long story. complicated to explain, especially over the internet. So once I start remembering him how he was, it should get better?

Yes, I agree, remember him as you knew him, send him Love, things will get better.

MyKindOfLullaby · #10 10-09-2013, 05:35 AM

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Originally Posted by primrose

Yes, I agree, remember him as you knew him, send him Love, things will get better.

I started to do this and I already feel a little bit better. I kind of feel guilty though for thinking bad things, I just couldn't help it. Thank you!