my vivianite broke in my hand

[FairyCrystal]

I haven't held a crystal in over a month and a half. I want to, I always often held crystals, especially in the evening when watching a series or reading.
But after what happened beginning of December I daren't.

What happened then... I was on an extremely high vibration after a workshop. I felt like holding my largest vivianite from Australia.
These are rare, expensive, and beautiful. I have a set and felt drawn to the largest one which is round in shape, but not quite as round as a sphere since it isn't shaped by man.

I held it for barely 1 minute when I heard a loud 'pop' and I felt something moving in my hand. Very light movement, as if you hold a small creature, an insect or something.
I realised something had happened to the crystal but I daren't look, I was kind of shell-shocked.
When I did look I didn't see anything. I had a closer look, knowing something had happened. The pop-sound and movement were real after all!
I put a flashlight on it and saw a very very thin fracture line. But the crystal was still in one piece. Not sure what had occurred, I gently went over the line and suddenly the crystal opened up and I had 2 almost perfect halves on my desk?!?

I didn't know what to think or do. I was so overwhelmed. I've never had anything like this happen before. Kind of like "lemme blink, then the crystal is back to normal again! This did NOT happen!"

Oddly enough it didn't feel bad, but I wasn't exactly jumping for joy either.
The crystal was about 8cm diameter, not a small crystal, it is rare, bloody expensive and I always loved it! Now I had 2 halves :(

I decided to email the story to Diana Cooper who had given the workshop.
She replied and told me that the crystal had given me a message when it broke in almost two identical halves.
I was given the message as well, beautiful. It's about having to balance my inner masculine & feminine, which is why it broke in almost identical halves. (that's the abridged version)

I'm still kind of shell-shocked. Loved the message, but sad it had to come to me this way.
And I'm afraid I'll break another crystal when I hold it, so I haven't held a single crystal since December 9.