I could use some help with the Celtic Cross

[Amethyst]

Hello Everyone,

I hope everyone is well and safe.
I placed a topic earlier this month and I will come back to that a little later.
I have laid a Celtic cross spread using the Raider Waite tarot for beginners.

The question that I asked is:
How big are my chances for getting the medical funding?

Celtic cross
position (all upright)
1. seven of swords
2. empress
3. five of cups
4. page of cups
5. page of wands
6. the chariot
7. 3 of wands
8. emperor
9. the world
10. temperance

I used the 8th position for timing, and environment and it stands for number four. But does it mean that I best wait? But the chariot is in the 6th position maybe telling to go ask for the help and that it will be successful?

I suggest that I could get the right as in the 10th outcome: but only if I ask help from experts in the field, that will be of help?

The chariot in 6th positions advices to be confident and courageous by staying balanced in all I will do; as I might take on too much onto myself and lose focus. The chariot in the 6th position says that I must not wait right? I am planning on moving to another place soon. Could that be stated by the chariot here as well? It is confusing for me as a beginner?

My birth card is a number 7. Maybe it says something personal about me and not in the context of an opportunity, for the next 3 months. Or…. that I should grab this chance as in grabbing the bull by the horns and not wait? I may also be pulled into two directions which might cause an internal imbalance through the process? By remaining confident by doing my homework. Added due to a relocation, that could cause an imbalance. And relocating confirmed by the world card in the 9th position.

The emperor may be telling me to wait a little, and not go for it now? Since the emperor isn’t going to take ** and I need to prepare well? With his stern demeanor, little emotions and significant power? Or does he tell me that I can rely on his help, as he is THE father figure? Which confused me a lot. In reality, it is a large organization that helps with medical funding. He could be the organization or the person I will be dealing with? But maybe, I could be dealing with a very stern and rigid bureaucratic person that is not going to be willing to help me? Also stated as in the seven of swords which frightens me really.

Furthermore: positions: 1,2, and 7. In position 1, there is a lot of thinking on my part or maybe the situation I am I am aware of? This one was very tricky. I am wary of deception or that I could be told flat out lies. I am not deceiving anyone, honestly. I think it is the environment. That which I fear? It maybe warns me to not tell everything in my medical record, says the seven of swords warning? I am a little torn as I will have to go through an entire procedure: which is going to be very emotional to me.

Next, the empress is a whole another card, which is about motherhood, creativity, and the wife of the emperor which is so much softer in character. I don't really have a mother figure? I do have a coach who works with me but don't consider her a mother but a coach? Maybe it is telling me to use my creativity but in what honest way possible? I am not pregnant in this case ;)
Lastly, the 3th position tells me that I’ve already given up? There is no hope I think? It signifies my short term actions I belief? Maybe it is telling me that I am not taking any actions at all? Which is true, I have been thinking about it, but do to many burdens I have been feeling I have not.

The five of cups card signifies a lot of sorrow. That it true I recognize myself in it. Something happened in the past and I honestly lost some hope, saying it mildly. I also suffer from mild depression. I think that the third position is about the short term actions I am taking right? I think about taking action but I gave up a little. But maybe it tells me more, and hopefully some more hope.

The 4th position tell me that I will be getting a message, and that I am very sensitive and creative of nature which is true. I write poetry for myself. Maybe I want or need to explore my creative nature more? But how could I see it in this context?

the fifth position says that I have all the assets I need to win this case and that I have the drive and enthusiasm? Signified in the page of wands? My rising sun is in Sagittarius

The wands, the student. I don’t get this really. Maybe use my enthusiasm? While it is a very serious trial? Or it is telling that I have what it needs?
I hope someone can help me on this very important question. I want to apologize for the long text but I am grateful that I am able to post it here as it very emotional to me.

Thanks a lot.
Warm wishes

Amethyst.