Bloodstone messing with me?
I probably bought too much bloodstone. I had to seal some of it up in a cupboard because it was kinda...strong. But since I've had it I've felt...kind of ballsy, to put a word on it. But I had an altercation with my dad, and I feel like...that's it. I am tired of him treating me this way. So I am sending him and my mom a letter saying they need to get anger therapy, and that they can't treat me that way anymore, and if I had been anyone else they would not have treated me that way (anger, yelling, no apologizing). I said that I need time away from them and that until I feel safe I won't be going to visit them. This is after a lifetime of verbal, emotional, and psychological abuse.
But I've also come to the realization that they can't do anything to me. They can't kick me out. They can't turn people against me. They can't make me believe that I deserve that treatment. They can't take anything away from me. I feel bolder. You may think this is a normal way to think, not bold, but for someone who has been raised this way, it is bold.