How do I recover from this?

[gravitysrainbow]

My coworker and I had a close friendship until I started seeing warning signs - manipulative behavior, white lies, codependency, etc. last week, he sexually harassed me and his hostility towards my rejection was so extreme I left work early. HR transferred him after I filed my complaint, and he blew up my phone for an entire week until HR told him to stop. Now he's telling my coworkers (who are fueled by drama) that we were lovers, all the while apologizing and guilt tripping me for speaking up for myself.

To make matters worse, we've had the same dreams. In one dream, he grabbed my arm and the next day, I woke up with bruises on my arm. I consider this a psychic attack. I can feel that he has a tight grip on me emotionally and is not willing to "let go" of me.

I cannot stand feeling like a victim or a martyr. I intuitively feel how people are thinking, what they're saying about me, and it makes me furious. Even though I know my anger will only cause me harm, I can't let this go and tolerate it. In my heart I know that revenge and spite is not the answer, but I have been so viciously wronged that instead of feeling self pity, I feel that my rage could turn into wrath. I strive to be a good person and I have morals and believe in compassion, but this whole situation is beyond all of that for me.

How do I approach all of this without hurting myself? I'm going to go job hunting on my next day off, which solves my hostile work environment problem, but how do I get this person out of my life? I just want to physically pull this psychic cord out of my chest until its not connected to me anymore - even if it causes me pain. That is how severe my feelings are and that is how badly I want this toxic person out of my life. My choices were to either put up with him or become a pariah, and I don't think that's a very fair choice to make. Advice would be appreciated.

[Thunder Bow]

This may be an law enforcement issue. He should have been fired. See a Lawyer about him. I recommend you quit now. Forget waiting for a day off. You were his "victim" and your anger is justified in this case. Holding it back and blaming yourself can and will hurt you.

Thunder Bow is right, you have a right to be angry. Being a good person doesn't have to mean being a saint all the time, so let yourself be angry or upset about how you were treated. It will pass.
As for getting him out of your life, I hope you can move jobs quickly, and slowly time will distance you from him until it's a memory. You could ask Angels/guides or whoever you may speak to, to lessen the ties between you and help you to move your thoughts away from this person in the meantime.

You may also find it helpful to save every contact he makes with you. Phone call logs, texts, etc. Then take it to the police, he is a stalker. Many people feel like they have no power in this - you do. Get him out of your life before he ruins your self esteem.

[gravitysrainbow]

Thank you for your responses. I've found that what these negative people have taught me in the past few weeks is what I never want to become and what I do not want to surround myself with.

Im reading The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav at the moment and found a quote that really put things into perspective for me: "Your evolution toward authentic power, therefore, affects not only you. As the frequency of your consciousness increases, as the quality of your consciousness reflects the clarity, humbleness, forgiveness and live of authentic power, it touches more and more around you. As your temptations become greater, so does your ability to make responsible choices."

In my situation, I have been wronged and that makes me very angry. However, if I choose to act out in anger, the negativity will only be perpetuated and it won't do my soul, or the souls of others, any good. If I choose not to give into the temptation to react in an angry, vengeful manner, whether these negative people realize it or not, I've made a positive choice that affects both my soul and their souls in a good way. I can choose to set a positive example without worrying about how others will react because their opinions don't matter. In the eyes of my higher self and the creator of the universe, I have done my best to enLighten the situation.

[CrystalSong]

Very good insight gravitysrainbow. It is also my experience that whatever I put out there comes back, and in my case the manifestation curve is very quick. A sad depressed mood brings clouds and rain within a few hours, anger causes people around me to become grumpy and fight (neighbors who don't even know me and so on) Electronics become disrupted, computers crash...

Basically our emotions are energy and the strong we experience the emotion the more far reaching the energy waves are and the more people/beings they can effect. Imagine a pebble dropped in a pond, now imagine a rock dropped in a pond.

There comes a point that being responsible for our reactions and emotions is critical for shaping the world around us and our experience in it. I try for Peace and love at all times, its far less disruptive. I'm not an island, my emotions create waves - I know this now beyond a shadow of a doubt.

ZPerhaps take the energy your experiencing now and transmute it into excitement about finding a perfect job, with people near your own vibrational level whom you can learn with, a job that you can feel passionate about and feel that you are moving good stuff into the world. Really visualize this job, what it feels like to have such co-workers and be doing something you feel very good about, work yourself up with emotions - then request that job from the Universe.
After the request is put in, let it go, get out of the way and let the Universe bring it to you, stop thinking about it completely.
Bless this one-time friend for allowing you to see important things about yourself and move you forward on your own path and for opening the space in your life for you to seek employment and co-worker more in alignment to the vibration and Light you wish to live and work in.

The more Love you can infuse into this the more you will shift yourself and your circumstances into your Highest Good.
You do not have to like this person, or ever speak to them again, but you can love the spark of the Divine within them that is currently very suppressed by the personality exhibiting on top.

Blessings of Peace to you.

[Native spirit]

Thunder Bow is correct you should report this piece of work to the police working under those conditions should not be tolerated.you can ask Arc Angel Michael to cut the cords of negativity from you, always be respectable and thank him


Namaste

[gravitysrainbow]

Thank you crystal song and native spirit for your advice. I've decided not to involve police unless he tries to contact me further or retaliates. For the time being, I'm focusing on my spiritual life and seeing the lesson that has been learned in all this. It's been hard, but I know in the long run it'll make me a stronger person. I will not allow others to make me become a cynical, bitter person. I am going to focus all my energy on finding a circle of positive people and a job where I am appreciated.

Thank you again for your responses. I have felt ignored and neglected in the past week. Your kind words have made a difference. :)

[Silver]

Originally Posted by gravitysrainbow

Thank you for your responses. I've found that what these negative people have taught me in the past few weeks is what I never want to become and what I do not want to surround myself with.

Im reading The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav at the moment and found a quote that really put things into perspective for me: "Your evolution toward authentic power, therefore, affects not only you. As the frequency of your consciousness increases, as the quality of your consciousness reflects the clarity, humbleness, forgiveness and live of authentic power, it touches more and more around you. As your temptations become greater, so does your ability to make responsible choices."

In my situation, I have been wronged and that makes me very angry. However, if I choose to act out in anger, the negativity will only be perpetuated and it won't do my soul, or the souls of others, any good. If I choose not to give into the temptation to react in an angry, vengeful manner, whether these negative people realize it or not, I've made a positive choice that affects both my soul and their souls in a good way. I can choose to set a positive example without worrying about how others will react because their opinions don't matter. In the eyes of my higher self and the creator of the universe, I have done my best to enLighten the situation.

You're on the right track, now. {hug}

[WonderLau]

You have very good answers here, and it seems to me you are finding your balance, which is crucial.
In the meantime, know that my thoughts are with you, asking Divine Guidance to be with you always.
May solutions be presented to you fast.