How To Make This Awakening Easier?

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I had some sort of a spiritual awakening two years ago just before I was sentenced to a year in prison and since then it hasn't been easy at all, at the time I was a heavy amphetamine abuser that was staying awake for six days at a time with a toxic boyfriend who was enabling my drug habit. Since I was a small child I was always psychic but two years ago I was experiencing again the things I experienced when I was six years old; But now twenty two years old I was seeing spirits, my intuition was so strong I was planning things that would happen before they happened, my telepathy was very strong again and my inner peace was feeling strong again too.

Since then I have quit drugs and partying and I am currently trying to find myself close with God but the whole ordeal is very difficult, I am severely difficult where I am staying in bed (the whole year) I haven't gone out hardly and I've seen probably friends five times this whole year and each time I have rushed home to sink in bed and hide from the evil of the world.

I recently had some professionals out to the house as I had a poltergeist in the house throwing stuff about and whispering in mine and my mothers ear in bed and it's just been a really difficult year, I was very close to suicide.

How can I make this awakening easier? It is really hard being this open to the truth of the world.

I love you all, any comments is much appreciated.