Should I message him?

I talked to a friend instead. I'm seeing the role expectation plays more and more in my life and my relationship. So being away from him has been quite a learning experience and allows me to process the information. I want to make sure that if I ever do contact him again, it's not because I want to reconnect. And if we do reconnect, I want to make sure that I've learned from our past mistakes and have improved as a result. I think both of us simply reached a point where we wanted out of this cycle. I've learned a valuable lesson in expectations because of it.

I did contact him after a week of prompting from my inner-knowing. I was told to contact him but to release expectations and since I'm trying to trust myself completely...I did. We had a series of rapid fire text messages but didnt talk about the relationship or what happened. He asked what made me decide to text him that day. I just said "no reason". He thanked me for texting him though. Then, I took a risk and I asked him to go with me to a movie (I already knew what he'd say). He said he would not feel comfortable. At that point, I felt like he started closing down on me and after a bit of talk, I left it there.

All my inner knowing is saying now is that he's not gone but he's not coming back. Idk what that means. But...yeah.

[Bluebutterflycr]

I feel for you Royalite... Difficult journey. In my case, when he runs I better wait, give him space. It's very tough but its what have worked. I focus on my inner growth, I meditate more, and then, when I message him, I wait to have a high vibe mood, in order to writte a high vibe message. If not, he doesn't replies me back....
Sending you love and light

Originally Posted by Bluebutterflycr

I feel for you Royalite... Difficult journey. In my case, when he runs I better wait, give him space. It's very tough but its what have worked. I focus on my inner growth, I meditate more, and then, when I message him, I wait to have a high vibe mood, in order to writte a high vibe message. If not, he doesn't replies me back....
Sending you love and light

He responds every time. But he says he doesn't want to talk about what happened and that it's better for the both of us to stay apart. He says he knows this because he has a gut feeling and that's that. So idk what happened or how he went from wanting me to stay to no more, go away, I don't want you to get hurt, etc.

I think I'm over it. :/ I can't understand how someone can suddenly flip like this and I've already driven myself crazy trying to contact him and figure out his motives. He purposely shut down on me and refuses to show any emotion because he says he can't be open with me. I can't keep doing this to myself. It just feels wrong. I just don't get why his gut is telling him something different from my own intuition.

I'll be okay.