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[captainamerica]

Found this online ,thought you will like it...

नमामीशमीशान निर्वाणरूपं
विभुं व्यापकं ब्रह्मवेदस्वरूपम् ।
निजं निर्गुणं निर्विकल्पं निरीहं
चिदाकाशमाकाशवासं भजेऽहम् ॥१॥
Namaam-Iisham-Iishaana Nirvaanna-Ruupam
Vibhum Vyaapakam Brahma-Veda-Svaruupam |
Nijam Nirgunnam Nirvikalpam Niriiham
Cidaakaasham-Aakaasha-Vaasam Bhaje-[A]ham ||1||

Meaning:
1.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) I Salute the Lord Ishana(another name of Sri Shiva) whose Form represents the state of the highest Nirvana (extinction of all desires and passions leading to the highest bliss),
1.2: Who Manifests taking a Form though in essence He is Pervading everywhere; and His Form embodies the Highest Knowledge of Brahman present in the core of the Vedas.
1.3: Who remain absorbed in His Own Self which is Beyondthe three Gunas (Sattva, Rajas and Tamas), which is Beyond any Vikalpas (Change and Manifoldness), and which is Free from any Movement (due to desires etc),
1.4: Who Abides in the Sky of the Chidakasha (Spiritual Sky); I Worship that Ishana.






निराकारमोङ्करमूलं तुरीयं
गिराज्ञानगोतीतमीशं गिरीशम् ।
करालं महाकालकालं कृपालं
गुणागारसंसारपारं नतोऽहम् ॥२॥
Niraakaaram-Ongkara-Muulam Turiiyam
Giraa-Jnyaana-Go-[A]tiitam-Iisham Giriisham |
Karaalam Mahaakaala-Kaalam Krpaalam
Gunna-[A]agaara-Samsaara-Paaram Nato-[A]ham ||2||

Meaning:
2.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) Who is Formless and the very Root from where the Sacred Omkara arises; Who Abides in the state of Turiya (the fourth state in which Brahman is experienced in meditation)
2.2: He is the Lord Who is Beyond the Knowledge which Speech can express and Beyond the Perception which Sense Organs can perceive; He is Girisha (another name of Sri Shiva literally meaning the Lord of the Mountains)
2.3: Taking the Terrible form of Mahakala He can tear apart Kala (Time) himself; at the same time He is an embodiment of Compassion to His devotees,
2.4: I Bow down to Him Who helps in Crossing this Samsara (delusion of worldly existence) which is like a Dwelling Place made of Gunas.






तुषाराद्रिसंकाशगौरं गभिरं
मनोभूतकोटिप्रभाश्री शरीरम् ।
स्फुरन्मौलिकल्लोलिनी चारुगङ्गा
लसद्भालबालेन्दु कण्ठे भुजङ्गा ॥३॥
Tussaara-Adri-Samkaasha-Gauram Gabhiram
Mano-Bhuuta-Kotti-Prabhaa-Shrii Shariiram |
Sphuran-Mauli-Kallolinii Caaru-Ganggaa
Lasad-Bhaala-Baale[a-I]ndu Kanntthe Bhujanggaa ||3||

Meaning:
3.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) Who is Shining White Resembling a Mountain of Snow; and His Being is very very Deep, ...
3.2 ... in the depth of Whose Mind exist Millions of Rays of Splendour, which expresses themselves on His Auspicious Body,
3.3: Over Whose Head, the Beautiful Ganga Throbs and Surges forth towards the Worlds,
3.4: Over Whose Forehead the Newly Risen Moon Shinesspreading its Rays, and around Whose Neck adorns the beautiful Serpents.






चलत्कुण्डलं भ्रूसुनेत्रं विशालं
प्रसन्नाननं नीलकण्ठं दयालम् ।
मृगाधीशचर्माम्बरं मुण्डमालं
प्रियं शङ्करं सर्वनाथं भजामि ॥४॥
Calat-Kunnddalam Bhruu-Sunetram Vishaalam
Prasanna-[A]ananam Niila-Kannttham Dayaalam |
Mrga-Adhiisha-Carma-Ambaram Munndda-Maalam
Priyam Shangkaram Sarva-Naatham Bhajaami ||4||

Meaning:
4.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) Whose Ear-Rings Sway near His beautiful face, which is adorned with a striking Eyebrowand Large Beautiful Eyes,
4.2: Whose Face is beaming with Joy and Grace, Whose Throat is Blue (due to drinking the poison during samudra manthana) and Who is extremely Compassionate,
4.3: Whose Clothes are the Skin of the Lord of Animals(signifying Tiger) and Whose neck is adorned with a Garland of Skulls,
4.4: I Worship Him Who is Beloved of His Devotees, Who is Shankara (another name of Sri Shiva) and Who is the Lordof All.






प्रचण्डं प्रकृष्टं प्रगल्भं परेशं
अखण्डं अजं भानुकोटिप्रकाशं ।
त्र्यःशूलनिर्मूलनं शूलपाणिं
भजेऽहं भवानीपतिं भावगम्यम् ॥५॥
Pracannddam Prakrssttam Pragalbham Pare[a-Ii]sham
Akhannddam Ajam Bhaanu-Kotti-Prakaasham |
Tryah-Shuula-Nirmuulanam Shuula-Paannim
Bhaje[a-A]ham Bhavaanii-Patim Bhaava-Gamyam ||5||

Meaning:
5.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) Who is Terrible, Eminent and extremely Strong; Who is the Highest Lord,
5.2: Who is ever Unborn and Whole; and with the Effulgence of Million Suns,
5.3: Who has a Trident in Hand, the Three Spikes of which Uproots the bondages of the Three Gunas (Tamas, Rajas and Sattva),
5.4: I Worship the Consort of Devi Bhavani Who can be Attained only by Devotion.






कलातीतकल्याण कल्पान्तकारी
सदा सज्जनानन्ददाता पुरारी ।
चिदानन्दसंदोह मोहापहारी
प्रसीद प्रसीद प्रभो मन्मथारी ॥६॥
Kalaatiita-Kalyaanna Kalpa-Anta-Kaarii
Sadaa Sajjana-[A]ananda-Daataa Pura-Arii |
Cid-Aananda-Samdoha Moha-Apahaarii
Prasiida Prasiida Prabho Manmatha-Arii ||6||

Meaning:
6.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) Whose Auspicious Nature is Beyond the Elements of the gross material world and Who Brings an End to a Kalpa (a cycle of creation when all gross elements are dissolved),
6.2: Who Always Give Great Joy to the Wise Men and Who is the Enemy (signifying Destroyer) of the Tripurasuras(who represents Adharma),
6.3: By Taking Away the Great Delusion, He plunges the prepared Soul in the Fullness of Cidananda (the Bliss of Brahman or Pure Consciousness),
6.4: O, the Enemy (signifying Destroyer) of Manmatha; Please be Gracious to me; Please be Gracious to me, O Lord.






न यावद् उमानाथपादारविन्दं
भजन्तीह लोके परे वा नराणाम् ।
न तावत्सुखं शान्ति सन्तापनाशं
प्रसीद प्रभो सर्वभूताधिवासं ॥७॥
Na Yaavad Umaa-Naatha-Paada-Aravindam
Bhajanti-Iha Loke Pare Vaa Naraannaam |
Na Taavat-Sukham Shaanti Santaapa-Naasham
Prasiida Prabho Sarva-Bhuuta-Adhi-Vaasam ||7||

Meaning:
7.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) As Long as the Lotus Feet of the Lord of Uma ...
7.2: ... is not Worshipped in This World or Later by the Human Beings, ...
7.3: ... So Long (i.e. Till then) Joy, Peace and End of Sorrows will not be experienced in life.
7.4: Therefore O Lord, Please be Gracious, You Who Residewithin All Beings.






न जानामि योगं जपं नैव पूजां
नतोऽहं सदा सर्वदा शम्भुतुभ्यम् ।
जराजन्मदुःखौघ तातप्यमानं
प्रभो पाहि आपन्नमामीश शंभो ॥८॥
Na Jaanaami Yogam Japam Naiva Puujaam
Natoham Sadaa Sarvadaa Shambhu-Tubhyam |
Jaraa-Janma-Duhkhau-[A]gha Taatapyamaanam
Prabho Paahi Aapanna-Maam-Iisha Shambho ||8||

Meaning:
8.1: (Salutations to Sri Rudra) I do Not Know how to perform Yoga, Japa or Puja.
8.2: I Always at All Times only Bow down to You, O Shambhu (another name of Sri Shiva),
8.3: Please Protect me from the Sorrows of Birth and Old Age, as well as from the Sins which lead to Sufferings,
8.4: Please Protect me O Lord from Afflictions; Protect me O My Lord Shambhu.






रुद्राष्टकमिदं प्रोक्तं विप्रेण हरतोषये
ये पठन्ति नरा भक्त्या तेषां शम्भुः प्रसीदति ॥९॥
Rudraassttaka-Idam Proktam Viprenna Hara-Tossaye
Ye Patthanti Naraa Bhaktyaa Tessaam Shambhuh Prasiidati ||9||

Meaning:
9.1: This Rudrashtaka (eight verses in praise of Rudra) has been Said (i.e. Composed) by the Wise for Pleasing Hara(another name of Sri Shiva),
9.2: Those Persons who Recite this with Devotion, with them Sri Shambhu will be always Pleased.

इति श्रीगोस्वामितुलसीदासकृतं श्रीरुद्राष्टकं सम्पूर्णम्।
Iti Shrii-Gosvaami-Tulasiidaasa-Krtam Shriirudraassttakam Sampuurnnam |
Thus ends Rudrashtakam composed by Sri Goswami Tulsidas.

[Shivani Devi]

Thank you for posting that...I love Rudrashtakam, and it was the only Ashtakam to be composed by Goswami Tulsidas...all the rest were composed by Adi Shankaracharya.

I would like to illustrate something to you right now, and why I get frustrated....ready?

Had you read the thread and/or my posts, you would have come across this one:
http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/sh...2&postcount=37

Now, in that post, I said that I have learned Rudrashtakam off by heart...so I already am very familiar with it...I chant it every day.

It seems as though you are feeling Shiva inside a lot more though...

I personally like Kalabhairavashtakam...and especially this version of it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASa08VbK5V4

I've only half learned that one...but another one I know off by heart is the Shiva Panchakshara Stotram:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbOvhJOQdto

Have you ever heard of Radio Mirchi - Devraag? Aap ke Bhakti, Aap Ke Shakti? I usually have that playing in the background at all times:
https://gaana.com/radio/mirchiplay-mirchi-devraag

Oh...I am back on my laptop...YAY!

कर्पूरगौरं करुणावतारं
संसारसारम् भुजगेन्द्रहारम् ।
सदावसन्तं हृदयारविन्दे
भवं भवानीसहितं नमामि ॥

Karpuura-Gauram Karunna-Avataaram
Samsaara-Saaram Bhujage[a-I]ndra-Haaram |
Sadaa-Vasantam Hrdaya-Aravinde
Bhavam Bhavaanii-Sahitam Namaami ||

Meaning:
1: Pure White like Camphor, an Incarnation of Compassion,
2: The Essence of Worldly Existence, Whose Garland is the King of Serpents,
3: Always Dwelling inside the Lotus of the Heart.
4: I Bow to Shiva and Shakti Together.

[captainamerica]

Originally Posted by Shivani Devi

I would like to illustrate something to you right now, and why I get frustrated....ready?

Had you read the thread and/or my posts, you would have come across this one:
http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/sh...2&postcount=37

Actually these days I have a very short attention and concentration span(almost 0) plus my mother reminds me constantly that after the depression hit me I am very,very forgetful these days ... Might explain why I get you frustrated ...I need to go through a thing 2-3 times before I can start storing it in my long term memory.

[Shivani Devi]

Originally Posted by captainamerica

Actually these days I have a very short attention and concentration span(almost 0) plus my mother reminds me constantly that after the depression hit me I am very,very forgetful these days ... Might explain why I get you frustrated ...I need to go through a thing 2-3 times before I can start storing it in my long term memory.

Fair enough.

So, what about the rest of that post then? did you listen to kailabhairavashtakam? Have you heard about Radio Devraag?

[captainamerica]

Originally Posted by Shivani Devi

Fair enough.

So, what about the rest of that post then? did you listen to kailabhairavashtakam? Have you heard about Radio Devraag?

I will go through the post again ...

I have read and listened to Kalabhairavaashtakam .Not heard about Radio Devraag ,what is it ?

Depression takes away every mental power you have including a proper memory and the ability to concentrate more than 3-5 min...

You know a lot of things ,I have read some of the books you recommended to me (Like "feel the fear and do it any way ") but could not afford to buy all the book you recommended to me,can you recommend any book for curing depression (I am currently following "5 minute miracle" for this purpose).

I can't even focus my attention properly on anything...it sucks...you'd have to see it to believe it ...

[Shivani Devi]

Okay, now we're getting somewhere.

Radio Devraaag is an online Hindi/Sanskrit devotional radio station. If you would have clicked on that link I provided and pressed "play" you would have heard it....and you honestly need some BRAHMI, my friend...for your memory...Ginko Biloba is good as well...I have a photographic memory and an eidetic memory...so I need to be patient with you.

There is also a very good doctor (she is dead now) called Dr. Claire Weekes...and here is some Youtube stuff:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REOdAWCv-BQ

I could give more, but just start here for now.

[captainamerica]

Originally Posted by Shivani Devi

Okay, now we're getting somewhere.

Radio Devraaag is an online Hindi/Sanskrit devotional radio station. If you would have clicked on that link I provided and pressed "play" you would have heard it....and you honestly need some BRAHMI, my friend...for your memory...Ginko Biloba is good as well...I have a photographic memory and an eidetic memory...so I need to be patient with you.

There is also a very good doctor (she is dead now) called Dr. Claire Weekes...and here is some Youtube stuff:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REOdAWCv-BQ

I could give more, but just start here for now.

I'd ask my father to buy me Brahmi and Ginko Biloba.But Ginko Biloba seems to be a bit costly ,but I'll ask anyway.

I am checking the youtube link you provided ...

[captainamerica]

Originally Posted by Shivani Devi

Okay, now we're getting somewhere.

Radio Devraaag is an online Hindi/Sanskrit devotional radio station. If you would have clicked on that link I provided and pressed "play" you would have heard it....and you honestly need some BRAHMI, my friend...for your memory...Ginko Biloba is good as well...I have a photographic memory and an eidetic memory...so I need to be patient with you.

There is also a very good doctor (she is dead now) called Dr. Claire Weekes...and here is some Youtube stuff:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REOdAWCv-BQ

I could give more, but just start here for now.

I will try the radio you mentioned ,but I am not much into radio stations..

[Shivani Devi]

Thank you for replying to me. Check out Claire Weekes, and see if you can get some Brahmi, Ashwaghanda and Shankhapushpi, if Ginko Biloba is expensive. Shilajit is good too.

If you are not into radio stations, thats okay...I just have it on in the background for noise...

[captainamerica]

Originally Posted by Shivani Devi

Thank you for replying to me. Check out Claire Weekes, and see if you can get some Brahmi, Ashwaghanda and Shankhapushpi, if Ginko Biloba is expensive. Shilajit is good too.

I'll check those out and see which of those I can afford ...