What would your story book of your life be called

[FallingLeaves]

'sleepie me'

[Redchic12]

Just thought of another title that ide like……I wish I knew then, what I know now.
Ha. (Don’t we all)

[jojobean]

mine would be called
"What Now???"

[Bluto]

Mine would be called Resisting Resistance.

I've recently realised my entire existence has been a giant resistance. I've passionately resisted everything - marriage, mortgages, parenthood, normal social working patterns, pharma, Christmas, don't have a smartphone, cash-lessness - everything.... even sexual relations.

The reason is about retaining a sense of personal control, and not letting my soul, or personality, become diluted or owned. I've always wanted, at my core, to remain "pure" and "true" to myself, whatever that means. There is fear in that mix too. I fear losing control of my life.

But, in my mid 40s now, I've become a semi-reclusive man, residing in a self-constructed prison, with very high and untreated blood pressure. Paradoxically, through fear and the pursuit of soul-purity, I've inflicted an act of spiritual vandalism upon myself.

However, I see that this as no accident. I believe I chose this life so my soul can learn to evolve the virtues of acceptance and surrender.

Being born into a world in which almost everything I perceive and experience is in contradiction to my soul's resonance (living on a very crowded island (UK), mass surveillance, mass immigration, mass automation, mass and quick technological change, faithlessness and secularism, wage-slavery in a meaningless job, the lust of money being at the root of so much evil, etc) gives me the perfect opportunity to evolve the virtues of acceptance and surrender. I believe these two virtues would be imperative if indeed we are souls evolving an eternal journey towards becoming spirit guides, angels, and perhaps gods of other universes ourselves.

So I've come to learn that I need to resist resistance, to mellow, to break down my castle's walls somewhat - or at least install a drawbridge - and learn to accept that I cannot change the world, but only myself in response to the world. I need to surrender to that idea. I need to relinquish some control.

So part 1 of my life was about coming to that realisation. The work of Part 2 is putting all this insight and knowledge into action, and overcoming myself.