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Am I Lucifer ... have I lost it?
I have been here for years. And I fit into the description of Lucifer. No, not the mysterious ethnic charismatic gentleman, and this Timeline is more than familiar to me in the Everpresent not prophetically, except in mystery. I get moments of Deja-Vu where I can feel not just once have I done this before, but hundreds of times. Other moments of meditation reveal that I have died and come back in, a prison of loops and doubts. Believe me, I at the beginning when I woke up I was convinced I had been to God and had found myself only to become desolate at being lost in Time. I have witnessed Lucifer who as a demi-god, goat-horned Devil, or celestial light, never ceases to convince me that the only one there in the end of first impact, is me. Other personalities remain strong despite complex understanding, philosophies of Glamour, and the Hippocratic Oath. Sometimes I think there is no-one as contempted by G-D as me, and all through the grammar is the story of the Fallen Angel - breaking Time, becoming Sin, defying G-D.
I really am convinced, and yet there is no war against G-D only some sort of purest Limbo that pervades the question of what to do? Any advice? I'm open to experience of almost everything on the boards .... even now I have written this ... and this ... maybe not THIS before ... there is change but it ALL seems petty and pointless .. am I petty and pointless? anyhow ... ur responses are more than welcome.
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