heartbreak

[Natasha]

I come here today for help, because I feel in low spirits.

I have become incredibly spiritual in the last year, things have changed for me and previously whilst going through this journey I wanted to be alone initially but then this year that changed and I started dating again. The dating wasn't going incredibly well, this was because I falling back into needy patterns and looking for love too much. I made some mistakes but I felt I learned from them and I stopped trying so hard.

A few months ago I met a lovely man, he seemed to have everything I was looking for, he was also spiritual which is something I am now keen to find in a partner. I havent really been out with anyone that was spiritual like myself before and I realised how important that was for me.

This morning he let me know that we can't carry on due to someone else unexpectedly coming back into his life and I feel so upset. I really saw this to be something special like it could go somewhere. I feel silly because it was all very new, but I was pinning a lot of hopes on it, even though I know I shouldnt look to the future and should concentrate on now, my heart was taking me to that place. I just feel so broken, dissapointed and upset. I feel like this after all my other mistakes is just too much to take.