Ecstasy Spaces

[Justin Passing]

I keep hitting these "ecstasy" spaces, especially when I listen to certain songs. It's like I'm being launched. And all the spaces I'm in - the places I visit - where I've been and where I'm going - all start to swirl around me like fireflies in the twilight. Not in so-called "real life", but everywhere else. In my actual real life. The life that warms me, sings to me, sweeps me along. Music is the most reliable way of feeling it - the ecstasy - but it's by no means the only way. It happens whenever, wherever, usually only briefly, but sometimes it runs through me like a massive rush. The current is strong.

I want to go. I want to join with that stream and sail off. I don't, but I want to.

But I am getting better at flowing with it. I know where it is, and I can sing to it. Feel it dancing in the darkness. Reach out and taste it laughing and flowing. Siren song. It's a siren song for sure, just as it's described in the tales of old. Tasting it makes me know I'm in a better world.

Better world? Well, better than the one I feel others living in. And when I feel them suffering, and hear their tales of woe, I want to point it out to them. I want to share it with them. This isn't just for me. It's available to all. Sadly, I don't know how to share it, or point to it, or even convince anyone it exists. And when I try they simply explain to me why I'm wrong. Life sucks. Everyone knows that. It's the only rational explanation.

So, does anyone know what I'm talking about? Do you feel these things? Taste the rainbow in the breeze? Do you find ecstasy in a rain drop on a sunny day?