Strange response from higher self

[dragoness_crysta]

I have recently had an urge to communicate for the first time with my higher self. I hadn't given it any thought before, but with all the numbers and the synchronicity driving me crazy, I decided that it was time to find a way to communicate with her. The experience was very nice because I got to know her and a lot of things started clearing up for me... I also felt more serene... but after every session, I feel a little drained from energy...

I read about using a pendulum which is the most common way.... the details of the pendulum are irrelevant as the "calibration" answers are always the same (and correct)....

which is strange for a VERY particular "calibration" question...

since my first meeting with her through the pendulum,

my calibration questions are:

for YES: Is my hair [hair color]?

for NO: Do I weight 1000 pounds?

very obvious... what also would be obvious, as a YES is: "Is my name [my Name]???

Strangely enough when I ask her for my name, the answer is always "no"...
And I mean EVERY time... not one time did she answer with a vague "yes", or "I can't tell you", or "I don't know"... or not move at all...

Can anyone help me interpret this? Does this mean that I do have another name I don't know of? What sort of indication is this concerning my existence???

I am fairly confused...