Virtual vs Reality

I have been in a virtual relationship with a certain guy who I met on facebook in 2012. We became great friends and really enjoyed our connection though it was virtual.We exchanged our numbers and started texting daily.We were always texting and our connection became special.We were like virtual girlfriend and boyfriend. It was such a special bonding that it felt so real though it was virtual.We talked about many things.We couldn't stay a single day without texting.We accidently saw each other at a seminar but non of us were confident enough to come forward and talk for real.But we complimented on each other as we went home through texting.We had a great chemistry that I have never had with anyone else in my entire life -not even with anyone I dated in real life.We fight we get back together.It was very sweet and it became my life.However in 2014 we stopped our virtual thing.We stopped texting daily due to some stupid childlike fight we had.But he kept coming back to me until now.We kept on fighting and arguing on petty issues and blocked each other.But few weeks/months later either he or I would apologize.This year marked the 6th year for our connection.And he has been asking to meet me since 2015 but I didn't want to.I was dating a guy then.I have been rejected by 3 guys last year.I was scared to lose him too.But considering the 6 years we had i thought this guy would stay.Thinking that,Maybe I am the exception and not the rule for him.I have fallen sooo hard for him several times and he has been caring sweet and romantic to me too.So today we met for the very first time to talk.There was no connection at all.No chemistry.No feeling.Nothing.I was surprised.After going home we texted again.He didnt compliment on my dress or how I looked like any other guy on the first date would do.I thought it was only me who didn't feel anything.But I receive a text from him saying he didnt feel any connection with me.I expected him to be little more mature looking and he thought I was thin but that wasn't the reason,however a problem to him .We had seen each other before through numerous pictures and even in real life.He used to compliment on my hair and etc.He knew I am thin.But yeah it was the vibe which screwed everything.We didn't vibe at all.I am so surprised.

What about the amazing connection and chemistry we had virtually.? We even came up with the same word and idea during our conversations like soul mates.It has been intimate at one point.We had a great chemistry that I haven't seen in any other couple I know.

How come there was nooo connection at all? I am sad and not sad at the same time because this isn't my first rejection.But I have been looking forward to this.i have even planned a a family with him naming my kids after his surname. What are we? Why did we meet? Is it over? I thought we had a plan.But today is the end of both our real and virtual connection.We decided not to let this go any further.I wish we didnt have bodies and personalities but only souls so that nothing would come our way to change how we felt like we always did since 2012.My friends who met the same way virtually are now happily engaged.Their relationships just went smoothly.Why am I always getting rejected.Boys in this forum.Does size of the body really matter.Why is it so hard for a guy to like a skinny girl like me? he wasn't just a guy,we were special for eachother.I thought we had a plan.Our synastry reading (astrology) came out good.Stating that we will make a great husband and wife supporting each other.What are we now?My only wish is to meet him in my next life and live happily ever after