First time telling this, difficult...

Hey blueIce, this is hard for me to say as well; the last thing any of us want is to expose our weaknesses; especially to some we don't know. Here goes anyway… I had reached a crisis point at the age 21. My life was in turmoil and I knew I was going to die this day; whether it be physical, or my understanding of everything I knew to be real. I was living within walking distance from the beach at the time. So here I am it’s 2 in the morning standing on the shoreline contemplating which direction to walk. I think you know what I mean. At this point after 2 hours of crying I drop to my knees and began screaming. “SOMEONE HELP ME!!! PLEASE, I AM BEGGING YOU, PLEASE HELP ME!!!” I know I said this for 30 minutes or more; I had no idea who I was talking to, and I didn’t care. I just wanted this emotional pain to go away. Well, it was very faint at first but I heard a voice; exactly the way you describe it, “I am here, go home now and rest”. Swear to God, That night was the best night sleep I had in years! At first I thought it was my mind just talking to itself. But I would have these conversations that were much too intelligent then to come from me. And yes, I went through many years thinking that there may be something wrong with me. But these voices led me on a journey of a spiritual awaking I NEVER knew existed. They’ve been with me every since. But about 5 years ago I had a back operation; then another, and now I’m waiting on one more. So I guess my mind set has been a little off and I don’t hear them in my waking state nearly as much as I use to. But it is SO nice to know someone else is having similar experiences. To me it is like inner dialog, which could literally go on for hours if I stayed focused.

Best of luck to you blueIce.
And by the way, it sounds as if they want you to believe that this is really happening and trust it with all your being before you can go any further. But of course you know, all you have to do is ask them.