I read the post from
PurplePrincess.
Believe me you are not the only one.
I have tried everything, spending money on help and just about all I could think of.
I have stayed away from here for some time now. I thought I would just give up everything and leave it be.
Although I so convincingly tell others about Angels and guides.
But I thought, how can I do that if I don't even know mine.
I have changed so much over the last years.
More the last couple of months.
So yes basically I think, if they are around me, they do not want me to find them. Why worry about it.
Live your life. Maybe it's not something that everyone should be able to have or connect with.
A Child has a very strong ability to see guides or Angels. Animals too. As we get older, so I've read, we choose not to follow the gift like some spiritual people do. The psychic side disappears so to speak.
The only outcome after all the time I've been searching and looking:
I live my life everyday as it comes to me.
I deal with whatever problems occur as best I can.
I try to consider other people's feelings but no longer at the cost of my own. (well maybe sometimes)
I don't think about tomorrow or even try to plan for it.
I don't sleep well, so I'm up till early hours of the morning, I take medication to sleep which basically knocks me out until the alarm goes off several times.
I've asked for guidance on everything I've tried and that's never been answered, or so i think as it always works out the opposite of what was planned. Maybe that was the answer.
Or if it is, it will be someone standing in the way of me achieving something.
So, as much as I've tried, it never came through for me.
Those here who has found it, it was meant to be.
My goal is to reach the final post of this lifetime without causing too much damage on the way.
Our lives are affected daily by PEOPLE. Those people can make or break what we decide on doing or planning.
How can this be altered by guides or Angels.
Those people to exactly what they want and when. My guides can certainly not influence the outcome to that.
If anyone here has a new method of trying that they would like to share, I would like to try one more time, with some help.
Please let me know.
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