Wanting to open new paths away from fear path

[alcyone]

When I was 18 years old a path opened up to me that was filled with light, freedom away from fear, love for self and seeing the light in others, and freedom to express myself without fear... Someone helped to put me on that path however it didn't last more than one year.

Now that I'm able to think more clearly and remember it , I wonder what it was all about. How did I even do that? It was great. It was amazing. I had a job, had a car, had a spiritual relationship through the astral and it all was working out great.

I did a lot of meditating during this time. Deep meditation that I haven't experienced since that whole year due to fear.. I was scared of meditating for a long time (until now) because I blamed meditation for my mental illness.

This spiritual relationship taught me so much but more so it let me be my true self... Not my human self it was more about the astral relationship and my energy expressing outwardly which was a good thing, so...

If anyone knows how to do this.. Please share any insight of what I can and should do to get back to being this way. :)

[Deepsoul]

its tough sometimes ,but remembering what worked and learning new ways helps

[naturesflow]

Originally Posted by Aesta

When I was 18 years old a path opened up to me that was filled with light, freedom away from fear, love for self and seeing the light in others, and freedom to express myself without fear... Someone helped to put me on that path however it didn't last more than one year.

When you enter into a place in you and outside of you, sometimes it doesn't last as you show, but that path or place remains if it is meant to remain. Not always as you might perceive it needs too remain and consequently we lose aspects of that path that make it feel like its gone, but we took something from that space important to us to retain and know, even as it might cease for a time.

Now that I'm able to think more clearly and remember it , I wonder what it was all about. How did I even do that? It was great. It was amazing. I had a job, had a car, had a spiritual relationship through the astral and it all was working out great.

Jobs change, cars get old and change, relationships open in so many ways, so as you show it was one way out of hundreds that you can participate in. If for example the happiness you felt was because of these things and not the other way around, no doubt things will stir up again in you to find the way to build those initial feelings for real.

I did a lot of meditating during this time. Deep meditation that I haven't experienced since that whole year due to fear.. I was scared of meditating for a long time (until now) because I blamed meditation for my mental illness.

This spiritual relationship taught me so much but more so it let me be my true self... Not my human self it was more about the astral relationship and my energy expressing outwardly which was a good thing, so...

Astral sex and astral playing, astral creations and relationships are all well and good, but real life will call you back too to integrate all this into living it aware of how real life can be for you. So what are you doing now for real for yourself in the real world? Are you actively participating in life to build new things and open to build new feelings in yourself? Are you meditating again to open up again and allow yourself a new way? this is how you open and let in new things..

If anyone knows how to do this.. Please share any insight of what I can and should do to get back to being this way. :)

As you know we have had a few chats in the chat room and my feeling is Aesta your now ready to embrace the feelings that you know exist in you to experience this for real as you. So if you wish to deepen yourself into life and others then start looking closely at those feelings, what gets activated in you without holding on. What you feel when connecting with others face to face when nothing is hidden. This is how you deepen. If you can open, you can online, you can even do it in chatrooms. Time is irrelevant to feelings and letting go, going deeper for real, every experience can build this depth if you allow yourself to go there.

The key is you have to stop the negative self talk that you cant let go also. Your mind attached will keep itself locked in where you lock it.