Sea Buckthorn

Oh, yes, lottas. =)
And by the way, there is a release going on. I am listening to that march over and over again, while crying and feeling the deepest gratitude towards our grandparents... <3

Oh wow! :)

Yep I read about them on the reenacting forum (it's Axis - all countries Axis) - that is a cool march! Thanks for sharing it! :)

and also...thanks for cheering me up too...made my day with your comment. *hug*

I think at this point of time we are here for each other... *hugs* <3

Thankfully...man...I've been having a really rough time with my life lately...and really feeling disconnected...just like a speck of dust floating around...trying to find some direction in my life.

Feel free to email me if you like. *hugs back*

Oh - and it's nice to talk about history with you too. :)

Yeah, this awakening process makes us so vulnerable, the rawness of the humankind just peels everything away, not to mention the disconnection from everything. And still I believe everything will be alright. By the way, I had a nasty poltergeist spirit with me a couple of years, really trying to scare me in many ways. I started studying him and found out that he had died in a battle of Kollaa and got stuck at Earth plane. When I realized that he was still in the energy of the war, I was able to help him out and get a release from here. His name was Mikko and he was quite a handful, lol! Blessings to him wherever he is now...

Yeah that's what happens to me - I'm quite vulnerable in more ways than one and many of my vulnerabilities I don't think people stop to really understand or think about - which, I can understand to an extent...

I've been clearing out so much lately - I'm using Homeopathic remedies, and will be using essences - that...as someone put it years ago...like an egg without a shell. I guess when I become more like this - I also turn into an urchin with its spikes sticking out...to keep people at a distance.

And I hate this...but I have a tendency to feel peoples' energy via the internet too...I hate it...I don't even like bringing it up...but sometimes I can just 'tell' or 'see' without even consciously trying to...peoples' true intentions. My one friend calls it a '** Detector'...and I hate it....

So I got all that going on with being so danged isolated...I don't have my true family since I didn't reincarnate by birth...I'm stuck in a country that I really can't relate to...in a time period that I can't relate to...I hate it...I hate this isolation.

I think there are many 'earthbounds' due to war trauma...the shock from dying so suddenly...you don't realize you're dead.

Exactly. There is so much terror in war, I understand Kollaa was a really tricky place to die, that... you don't get to prepare to die. All the dead people that I was involved with in the first two and a half years had experienced a sudden death. I am so grateful to the people who are helping them out. Those 2.5 years really exhausted me to the point when I decided that I have done my share, others will continue.
I also feel people's energies over Internet and I want to share this with you, because I learnt the hard way. A being can wear a shield that projects your Light and Love back at you, and you think that you have found something beautiful. I was sending my Love to many people wearing this shield (I actually think that they are a cult) and was amazed at how wonderfully shiny they were, until I woke up from a state of being literally a zombie. I had let my guards down and they were able to draw my energies while I was not paying attention. This took away my faith to people for some weeks, when I realized that I cannot continue in total separation, and found this site. I am still not fully the Light I was before, but I work to get back there.
I know you shield yourself, because you have been through a lot. But I see you and you are beautiful.

I had to look up Kollaa (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battle_of_Kollaa) - I've thought, as I said about putting together a WWII Finnish impression, but then I thought to myself, "Where the heck would I even start?" I wouldn't know where to begin with research or anything...I wouldn't know what rank to be at the age of 30 (I'll be 31 this year). But I will read about Kollaa.

I have had some terrible experiences with the internet and people...horrible...the worst was when I was on a spiritual board (now defunct I might add) where I met someone and this person turned out to not only do ID theft to me on my credit cards, but was also a con artist. I was very vulnerable then because I was very ill with so many problems...and she got away with it. I had even gone to the police and nothing was done really...so I had to file bankruptcy. It embarrasses me to say it - but it happened. I can't undo that sort of thing.

I've also had a terrible time on MySpace 4 years ago...horrible wicked woman made an imposter profile of me and thankfully one of my WWII reenacting buddies informed me - as this happened over night and I woke up to deal with a good 2-3 days of hell. She had sent me a very vile message saying something along the lines of 'it's only a computer it doesn't have feelings'...just really cold hearted stuff...and also saying on the imposter profile that I go around befriending people and then breaking their hearts. *sighs*

I'm glad you're able to see beyond the 'dark shield' I guess you could say that I keep...not many can - they just see someone who is probably violent, evil, likes to see things suffer, etc.

But they don't know me...

I'm glad to have met you. *hugs*