Has anyone noticed anything different lately in their dreaming?
I had lucid dreams from the time I was a very small child. I developed the ability out of necessity in order to change the outcome of some very disturbing recurring dreams I had...felt like nightmares really. This first set I had to deal with was by the age of 3 or 4. And again around 6 or 7, there was another set of nightmares lasting a few years, till 8 or 9. But without the terrifying dreams, I'm sure it would have been much later.
I had a very vivid set of dreams around 18-20 that would always became lucid during the dreams. They all appeared to be very distant past-life memories of dying violently due to betrayal. In them I was me, I was always male, and was often betrayed by friend(s) or family. Although it has always "felt" like I have been predominantly female by choice most times. The main theme of this set of dreams/lives seemed very clearly to be that violence was not ever the way to resolve issues.
Since then, as an adult, I've had lucid dreams regularly, often several times a week. It's a regular part of my spiritual work, along with meditation. Meditation and lucid dreaming blend very well, actually. So I've come to associate most of my lucid dreaming with intention and flow and clarity, etc. There is honesty and transparency and all good things.
But like everyone else, for the most part, there are some non-lucid dreams I remember vaguely or vividly, and most of them I don't recall at all.
Here's the weird thing...lately, I am lucid in what I would term my regular old dream sleep. This is just a bunch of normal weirdness that your brain cranks out to deal with and process your daily grind. I find am increasingly lucid in this portion of the night too and frankly it is not that pleasant. Meaning, I am lucid, but I am not in full control here, more just observing.
With regular dream sleep, as you know it doesn't always "hang together"...things shift around, you are dealing with seemingly regular yet odd or random real-life situations that you have to flex and navigate, maze-like situations, or situations that feel like "office politics" and so forth, and other unpleasantries from daily life. It is often tedious and wearing, just like a hard day at the offc. or when we have to deal with family or other ppl who are unpleasant or unkind, over and over again.
I have been waking up due to what I think is the sheer monotony, boredom, and/or stress of what goes on "under the hood". When I just can't stand the tension and the cr*p, or yet another weird, stressful, &/or rude social situation I have to navigate, then I find myself awake. So minimal control is there, I suppose.
I wonder if anyone else is noticing this? And if so...what a drag, eh?
What are your thoughts on this?
So far, I'm thinking that there is a level of transparency that is coming to the fore.
And that as our awareness and integration of individual and collective consciousness grows, we will increasingly have to find more ways to make our daily grind and interactions with others in our lives more pleasant and tolerable all round in our "waking realms", or it's gonna drive us all MAD in our "dream realms"
hahaha!!!
Peace & blessings,
7L