Help me find a way to ........

Hello from Alabama !! I'm really happy to be here. For years I took spirituality lightly if at all and shook my head if I saw anyone meditating or basically doing anything spiritual. I was never really religous unlike my entire family , though I have been baptised , it made mom very happy but I felt nothing.
I have had relationships before , many of them. I felt the pain of a broken heart when they ended. My current situation is 2 months after my wonderful girlfriend and I split up. I am the one who initiated the break up to give her life back ( she was 25 years my junior and yes I know that is very young
( 18 - 21 ) time frame we were together. I knew inside she had to go be a twenty year old girl and I could not stand in her way. Though I initiated this I have been dealing with serious heartache and tried everything to overcome the terrible feelings. I bought a book by chancve from Susan Piver - this read along with meditation has done tons more than anything I have ever tried or seen or even heard about. My life has changed , this is the biggest thing that has ever happened to me in my life.
I am having only a few lingering random thoughts I have been fighting for several days now and I cant get them to leave , even after befriending them. The thoughts are terrible and very difficult to deal with. I will not give up but I wanted to ask if there is anything else I can try or if some or all of you would send some merit this way , maybe that will help , Im sure to reciprocate. Any and all helpful information is very much appreciated. John -

[Zedna]

horrible thoughts are usually traceable to former incarnations. Like my fear of heights had something to do with the death by falling I had in a former incarnation.

In order to release the past lives, take one undesired feeling or thought, and trace it back to the very beginning of that thougth or feeling. Imagine a line connecting you to that incident. It can occur in several lives without being processed, so remember to take it to the very beginning.

Send light from the heaven above (or universe, what suits you best) through your head, out of your heart and into that situation you've found in your past lives. Put it around that situation and alter it so it becomes good, put some positivity into it, the only limit here is your imagination :)
When you've done that, look at that line that's been connection you from that situation, that's the line you've spent energy on preserving. Watch it as it dissolves like dust and let it go back to the heavens to be cleansed and reused in healing this world.

This excercise helped me a ton, and I hope it'll help you too