Hi. And I feel your emotion. I am exactly the same. My father is still alive. But I am already preparing for what happens when he departs. I don't know how I will feel, what I will do. I have spent a lifetime trying to make him proud of me, the daughter , his firstborn , that he has "washed his hands of" so many times and for what?? I actually believed that producing his first grandchild on his birthday , and giving the boy his grandads name as a middle name would do the trick.... But no. And whereas he does have a close bond with his eldest grandchild, his daughter I'm afraid, remains very much a "disappointment"...