I understand... you went through some horrible things, you see, I can't give up on God so I keep on trying and trying and trying to reach the Source. Yes, for how long I can remember, water always had this relaxing effect on me, as if it takes all the weight over my shoulders..
This is what happened today:
https://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/s...d.php?t=136653
I am still not doing very well... but miracles seem to happen.. even if they are not directed toward me, you know, when I hear of my loved one getting sick, even if it's about someone that's not part of my family, I try everything I can do help them.
You see, I woke up so so so tired from that session o meditation, I was moving coming and going out o my body but I can't remember a thing about what happened while I was gone, to me it was a second or a few seconds, this is what I felt when I returned back.