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well he thought
he might as well
be plain about it
he's been studying
altered states of reality
within the physical realm
for a very long time
e.g. the kind of experiences that lead to
physical 'miracles' and such
it is the thing that keeps him sane
all the silver linings
associated with
people disliking him
seem to lead
in this one direction
different eastern traditions
have different views on that though...
this is officially verboten
by the way
most aren't allowed
to think they can
study that explicitly,
even though some eastern masters
make progress
in a totally incidental way...
and even if you do
have the desire
the path is so obscured
by the desire to be dealing with others
and be believing what others believe
and be limited by what others are limited by
that few make any progress...
so
anyway
in his estimation
he makes progress
in ways he can measure
just not in ways others would agree with
or approve of.
And they would not even agree
he is allowed to do this
Such is the seal around this topic.
The agreement of people
forming a wall to keep them out.
That is how all the seals work,
and how we are kept out of eden
and why people in this reality
are forever striving...
all because we care about our place
and want to be vain about it.
So he understands
if he wants to persist in this
it will always be a lonely quest.
But any more he is wondering,
if that isn't the way it should be?
in some ways
what he sees
seems so beautiful
in comparison to being in the 'in' crowd...
anyway right now he is like
if you think it an extraordinary thing
and can't come to think of it as being
as ordinary as breathing
you aren't getting anywhere much
before enlightenment
'chop wood carry water'
after enlightenment
'chop wood carry water'
But then again
he is at the point
where he can sense
there may be something compelling
beyond the glitz and glamour
of the simple parlour tricks
that seem to get esteem.
and maybe the eastern masters
are right in a way
after all
that the 'efficient' thing to do
is just ignore this aspect of reality
in favor of ascending to the heights...
On the other hand
he is having
lots of fun
so why ruin a good thing?
just to be efficient?
isn't just being alive enough?
and besides
with all the evil people
in high places
ascending may not be as possible
as they have us conned into believing
we can...
personally he has always thought
there is definitely a caste system
in spirituality...
many above
aren't saints
but instead very mean
with their demands
for what you have to do
what hoops you've got to jump through
to be accepted
and then beyond that
they make it impossible
to do the things they tell you to do
or jump through the hoops you've got to jump through
so you cannot be accepted
this is his experience
it can be frustrating.
But that is only what he thinks...
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but he does realize
what comes next
after whatever it is
he is doing now
is open to interpretation
lies
skewed viewpoints
misrepresentations
self serving thought
etc...
and he himself
may not know
what it is he is talking about
either
because he simply isn't there at the end.
or should he say the beginning?
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he knows that
if he were going to be efficient
he'd have to let himself
be logic'd into
just shutting up
to get efficiently
to the goal.
Fortunately he saw through
a lot of stuff
and will just enjoy himself
as much as he can
and then just live with the consequences.
being logic'd into slavery
doesn't seem so compelling any more.
Sometimes ya gotta take your lumps
Prevention of bad things is the pits...
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he reflects
that
even this whole thing
about growing old and then dieing
only works
because people have agreed
to believe in it...
and they act on their belief
so when they grow old
they give up and die.
he reflects
you have to be careful with that law of attraction
it will take things away from you
as easily as it will be your friend.
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so now he'll see
what the punishment is
for being so forthright
about his position
he guesses.
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