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Originally Posted by realizefun
Lynn, did your life fell apart after your nde? Or any other dramatic changes?
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Hello
I do not feel that my life fell apart, yet I could go to that poor me place in life. The fall did a lot of long lasting damage to me, but too I lived. I was a fraction of an inch from maybe not being upright or even alive. When I landed it was slightly off the base of my chin so I did not have a straight on fracture in my neck that could have left me paralyzed or dead. I shattered most of my teeth, and I fractured my jaw and neck, some ribs and was badly bruised for month.
The extent of the injuries took 6 months to be discovered as I could not lay flat without passing out. The Dr said it was trauma from the fall nothing more but "humored" me with a CT Scan, and was stunned to find more serious injuries.
It was a year before I could open my jaw to have dental work done to the full extent needed so food was in a blender and straw. Exposed nerves in the teeth so tons of pain, Neck brace and ribs wrapped. I do not recall the pain I had and much of that year is a blur even though I was able to go to work with limited duties.
I look to that night and one second I was on the top of 18 grey stairs then at the bottom of them. My friends Dad dropped me at the ER door and left. How I got home is a mystery, but I was told by a friend that I looked like I had been raped. Badly bruised and swollen.
It was a "lesson event" as I was playing with some very dark arts and I had to change that path to fulfill the life path I am now on. To learn how to help others in that darkness I had to experience some of what it is about but NOT to use it on someone that is the lesson event I was given as that was going to be the next step I walked.
Life changed in the way I had to learn my limits, I have balance issues, and the simply crack or dip in a sidewalk if I do not see it will make me feel like I have dropped 1000 feet, the Dr said. I had to be tested in a pressure chamber to make sure I could fly on an airplane.
Life gives us lessons and gives us at times that second chance to change and grow. I would not miss that event having happen, but too I do not regret it happening I learned my lesson.
Play in the darkness and karma will have a bite to it all. Blessed every morning I wake up alive, pain is a side effect at times but it does not define me or rule me.
Lynn