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Originally Posted by Miss Hepburn
Could you consider he was not your twin flame ...just a guy, a boyfriend?
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Hi, sorry my thoughts sometimes are such a mumble jumble, & maybe one day this post will be lost within many, cuz I am kinda embarrassed that I cannot answer simply.
I think maybe he is just a false TF, & or maybe I am just super sensitive & over connected to this poor guy.
We are still connected. I think I was just super numbed out, & I am codependent on the situation. Plus, there was a full moon that caused me to have pure bliss. Slowly he has come back in, stronger & stronger.
Right now, I seem to have blessings for any which direction I want to go. I can even go back up there, there is a job, there is a nice place waiting on me to rent. Because we're in separation for good reason, & I am typically the type to want to grasp something concrete, it is hard for me to want to just stay put. It was only just a week ago, I thought I was unhirable, & I thought I might be really screwed if I did not get this funding for my heart project. But since than, so many amazing things have come into play.
I REALLLY want to go into another direction with my life, & it requires a little more patience. It is not as tangible atm It is being built from thin air in a sense.
There are blessings here, too, in fact my path opened wide to them with a mentor & everything soon after that happened. & I will lose the codependence through it, I feel.
I was just going by what some reader's were telling me. He & I have NEVER dated, & have never been physical in the 3d. & he always leaves, he always runs. He rarely chases & if he does it is short lived, & he side winds.
If I go back up there, I'll be constantly heartbroken, & feel this ever lasting pull to have just stayed here & have gotten my project off the ground. I'm super indecisive. The thing is, we lived like a few blocks from one another for a whole year!!!! & he hardly wanted anything to do with me than! & now that I am 15+ hours away, & if I go to the coast as I am hopeful to do, I'll be even further. It is just such an odd thing, we are closer now in all this connected stuffs, than we were when we physically lived so close.