[Miriah]

I -died- recently.

Spirits guided me to -die-.

but it actually led to something like a rebirth.
I sometimes wonder if this isnt a parallel reality where I survived.
Its weird to think about how the people I know arent -my- people.

Death wasnt exactly pleasant, per se, but it was peaceful.
I didnt feel bodily or mental fear, even though I was very nervous.

I death rattled, and found that it was my soul shaking itself free from my body, but I ended up ourobourosing, then losing consciousness.
When I came back to, I was still alive, in an upright position.
I didnt feel exhausted at all, actually, I felt more alive than I had felt as far as I can recall.
I was naked.

Maybe I didnt really die. Maybe it was more like a death simulation the spirits wanted me to experience, and they had it all under control..

but heres the bizarrest thing about it.

My room was fullllll of flies.
I am sooo messy.
When I got back home, EVERY INSECT was dead. Gone.

My sense of time slowed down dramatically, which I desperately needed because I had felt so rushed before, when there wasnt really a good reason to feel rushed.

My family didnt bother me.

I started seeing light and dark auras, faces and shapes appearing in things.

I thought I was in the afterlife for a while after that.
I thought I was just supposed to say my goodbyes.

I heard my father talking about a spirit box and something weird about it.
I didnt even know he knew about spirit boxes.

I lost my appetite almost entirely. I started back on soup and light meals.
but I didnt feel a loss of energy.

I didnt sleep.
I didnt even really feel like I needed to.

So I was wondering if maybe when we die we just slip into another timeline until our final ouroborous takes us to an afterlife? I dont know.

Its still so weird about the flies.
They had been everywhere, flying up my nose and stuff. but after this, just total poof. All the larva was dead/gone too.
Theyre still gone.