[ThatMan]

A few days ago something happened, prior to this event, an experience like this was rare and not a conscious thing, that till few ago.

I suddenly realized that my whole sense of self collapsed into an ocean of awareness, of consciousness. I was this ocean of consciousness, it actually felt like an ocean, literally, consciousness felt like made of liquid light but there was no light, if this makes any sense. At that point I said to myself, I arrived here, in the place from where all that I am comes from.

As I was being in this boundless space, spaceless space, I suddenly noticed this buzzing sound, which felt like being made of electricity, different from my tinnitus, this was something else. Then this buzzing sound slowly became clearer, it was the sound of a low hum, pulsating at times. I was like, WOW!!! This is incredible, I hear it loud and clear and it stays, it is not coming and going. I also nothing some parts of my body starting to vibrate but it only lasted few moments. Then as usual my mind's reaction was one of fear, I was like, maybe this time I did it, I went too far and can not come back from this super deep state, then blankness and I woke up in the morning. Somehow, I fell asleep.

I said to myself, maybe this was just like before, a rare experience that is not going to persist and that was it. Great was my surprise when last night when I started to meditate, the sound was there again, this time consciously I focused on it which it made louder and clearer the more I was giving in to this sound, like giving in to this spaceless space. This time it was not pulsating, it was continuous. Hearing it loud and clear, continuously. Like before, I also noticed that some parts of my body were starting to vibrate but it not last much.

And the closest sound that I heard in real life is the OM but does not really resemble what I am hearing, for this is something physically produced, but now what I am hearing, well, this is not physically produced, this is made of energy itself, it is consciousness itself being aware of itself, if this makes any sense.

How to put it, my human mind, this point of consciousness, came very very very very close to to its own source and it was hearing itself, I was hearing the source of my being. That's what I felt.

This is really, really, really amazing and what's even more amazing that it's not coming and going, something rare that happens once a few months, I can consciously arrive there, something that I could not do before, for this door way within myself was not there before.