[Cosmic Joe]

Originally Posted by Aldous

I feel like I went through a couple phases with this connection to my twin and tend to have different thoughts about it at times because of this. I usually consider it to be about 8 years until I could accept the separation. I vaguely remember talking to a psychologist about her after the summer of 1978 when I told him about the incident where she was sitting in the court yard at the community college we went to after the summer after the semester where we were in the same English sci-fi class "together" (ie. close physically), and I was afraid to go up to her even though we kept looking at each other. It was that heart pounding thing and anxiety and also I could feel that powerful energy even though she was sitting 50 ft. away from me - telepathy! I knew it. The obsession was only between us two because of some sort of spiritual phenomenon (before this I thought she had that mysterious charisma effect on everyone). I never heard of the term twin flame or related terms at the time and figured she must be my soulmate, because that was the only term I heard of that could explain it to me at the time. The shrink said after I told him I was afraid to go up to her (to avoid the pain), that she went on to be a racquetball champion as a joke. He didn't understand it. After that I thought to myself that next time I see her I would go up to her, which I did in November on the racquetball courts. That's when I had that amazing experience, which I seem to have been open to at the time, almost like looking into a mirror and seeing myself reflected back at me. Before I felt I was looking into a mirror, I felt that we both had vibrational patterns of some kind which were identical and I felt as if we were like two transceivers transmitting some sort of wave energy back and forth. When I first met her, I didn't feel the connection or recognize her at the time. Over time the connection seemed to have strengthened when in contact with her and then weaken during the separation. How is it that I didn't completely recognize it when we were in class together? I've felt telepathy from other people, but tended to ignore it. I don't like the thought of someone reading my mind either. I wanted to know what makes me so obsessed with her and opened myself up to the telepathy and got the answer. Of course, its spiritual. She's that special one I've known all along.

No one else can substitute for my twin even if she said find someone else which she did in a 2016 email. I feel as if we are married in spirit and imagine her as my bride sometimes even as a mother figure or am I seeing the primordial soul we both come from as our parent? Another time for the fun of it I went up to the social workers at the US Patent and Trademark office (I've used their public searchroom for years) and told them about my out of the body experiences and about my twin. One of them started asking me questions as if he was trying to test me for psychosis. The other social worker said that she talked to a lot of people who claimed to have out of the body experiences, but was not convinced it was true. Afterwards, the guards might have started watching and following me even more than usual because of this. Obviously, they weren’t Hindus or Buddhists. Basically, I found the shrinks are almost completely worthless to me. Group therapy seems to be better for some things and might benefit with the guidance of good open minded shrinks. I tried going to some AA meetings a couple times with a friend, even though I was never a true alcoholic (maybe a weekend one at one time). Discussing your problems with people that can relate to them seems to be better that some sort of western influenced psyche doctor who can't relate to anything spiritual, which seems contradictory. They recognize the conscious mind, but spiritualism is often taboo to some doctors and scientists. I never found any Buddhists at the USPTO, but I’ve talked to a number of Hindus in the area and their philosophy seems similar to new age philosophy.

Like one soul in two bodies. The connection is permanent.