Hello

I've had my crazy out of me too. You can have multiple awakenings, and to me it seems you are having another.

Also, I understand you don't want to hurt him, but with time you'll see that no matter how much goodwill you put out to it, we always end up hurting ourselves. You're not accountable for others' feelings.

Ah well, I understand pretty much all you have now is questions, spinning in circles. That too, will pass !