My Own I Am.
I realise now - in my 50's - that the whole I Am thing is where my life went wrong. I chickened out of I Am and settled for 'we are' and 'God is'. This did not work. Everybody needs their own 'I Am' and now I need mine.
So it is a matter of knuckling down and generating my own sense of I Am. This is often what happens with psychoanalysis and psychotherapy. But I cannot afford an analyst and so I am on my own. It is a bit scary at times. But I feel I will prevail.
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The Humility, the Pride and the Humiliation.
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