I have no great knowledge of totems but will respond anyway.

Animals guides and helpers can come and go, a totem will remain with you all your life.
So you'll come to know your totem in time without a doubt.
Continue to ask and talk with Nature and your guides but also relax and don't hurry the process.
Keep enjoying and connecting to the blessings of Nature.

Here is a little site that might help.
https://www.gaia.com/article/find-yo...nimal-meanings