Hi BJAsapace, I am a newbie here but I've been lurking for awhile now. I think it's *normal* to feel unwanted, especially when one's earlier message indicate that one is unwanted.
The way that I've come to stop those thoughts is keeping a journal. I write down the good, bad and ugly. Sometimes, I write letters to those who've harmed me and burn them as a way to release them from my mind. Sometimes, it takes doing this repeatedly to make it work.
You are NOT unwanted. You just haven't found the place where you feel wanted and that's okay. Many people feel that way. Take time to consider YOU and find your internal "happy place". Once that's done, you will attract the kind of people that you need in your life.
I wish you well. I wish you peace.