so I have no hope? ok. i'll just exisst as long as htis body lives. othing matters anyway, except true friends, nothing else matters at all.
i have no crystal and the tibetan singing bowl video does nothing for my throat at all, it feels like it's dead. plus i'm getting momentary pains in my chest area now and then at times.
i accept i'll never get past this. i guess this aspect was meant only to do the groundwork for the next aspect who'll be the one to finish. i'll just exist as long as this body lives, nothing more.
as for help upstairs, there is no upstairs, nor downstairs just here only, nothing else. even if there were an upstairs there is no hope fo me at all. sorry to be a downer but that is the truth.