Thank you again CosmicWonder. Sorry for your past pain of those experiences. Yes, you're right, could be that too.

Before I use to think that people who go for magic is that they in reality feel powerless to do something real to make what ever it now is that is damaging to stop, and so I've never bothered, me thinking well then that is it, then. As I don't want to manipulate energies and I think some magic is just about that, but then the excuse has been but we will only do so and so, but one should not even have to do so and so. I know one can think it is a laughing matter, but I am sensitive to energies, and I simply do not like the manipulation part of it. Then again I am getting now more and more desperate.

But you bringing up Jezus like that gives me a nice feeling and I will try to do that :) Thank you.