Thanks RedEmbers. It could be that we are not ready for and intimate relationship yet. I use to be very closed and didnt open up to a relationship until about 5 years ago when I started college. Also I'm still a little afraid to be myself around him as I don't completely know how he would feel especially with how dramatic I can be at times. But then again I feel if it is meant to be then he will accept me despite how dramatic I can be. Honestly I don't really know why I crave so much affection especially from him at times. I'm not really the desperate type. I like getting attention and affection but I don't think I need it all the time. But then again it's normal I guess to want some attention every now and then.