Me back again. H ave to be careful what I write here or not so I won't blow any cover.

What I can add is that someone part of doing this in this gang has too told me that it feels so good that in some particular situations I have not done what the other one has done/the attitude, seeking the opportunity, to this other one. I hope that makes sense, LOL and that I was/am not too cryptic. So anyways there is this relief that I am not doing it when that someone has been used to it being done to itself (even if that someone too participate in it itself).

What I think is sad is that my previous experience too tell me that people do not dare to be vulnerable when they should be able to feel free to be that because they do not know if it will be made fun of later.