It began with a nightmare when I was very young that I did not know was past life stuff ...then when I was older I was taken geographically back to where my past life use to live...so I really felt confused, got flashbacks, just knew things, had dreams, I still had trouble seeing myself as through the eyes of the person who I was experiencing these things as, perhaps because I was getting older and much more solid in my own identity, it was very hard to picture I had been someone else sometime...go from child to an adult...then years ahead I found her, her ex husband, her family on the net, facebook...I still did not know much at all about reincarnation (thought it was a thing in India only) but then we looked alike and had same personality...my search resulted in that the things I remember turn out to have been happening to her...the house still stands where she lived with her ex (well he was not her ex then, but you know what I mean)...it was as if I could remember both things that were not at all dramatic and things that were very dramatic, like one time a woman coming to the house and being upset and it was the ex' ex girlfriend and she was pregnant so I remember that happening and what happened out on the street and how things looked, then on facebook my past life child has taken photo outside this very house, out on the streets and it was as I remember this scene, how things had looked too, but I had been there before when I was taken back in that area so I knew this too from before but had no idea what was going on with me and I would not dare to go knocking on the house and so on.

When I experience these things it is a feeling of living in two worlds at the same time and I would get effected by it, but it was difficult to explain how, after sleep I was more strong again my own identity and it all felt like a dream. as adult my past life child came in contact with me through business and I was shocked that could even happen, that our worlds would meet like that, I never dared confess to having this child's mom's memories. For some time I really wondered what it would be like to meet the ex in real life, would he recognize me? I never dared too. it all felt forbidden. Like I knew I was not suppose to remember. Not suppose to disturb them. I was happy to see they were doing well and I think it was important to see that life had moved on as they were frozen in time in my memories of them.

One thing I am real glad about is that something that had been so bad in this past life had been used for something good. It was that the child and the ex had through business and charity focus on helping children, youngsters and exposed women (abuse, sickness). My eyes watered when the ex said in an interview he still missed his ex wife (my past life self, his ex wife, who had after the divorce been abused by another man, same man that had abused their child too). He tried to interfere and protect them from it. At the closing end of her life they were getting close, perhaps a reconciliation had been possible but she died.

It could have been a combo of things for it to happen this way for me, how she died, being back there where she use to live, the time from when her life ended til i was born so I was born into the same fashion, same period, not much had changed, so this could have triggered things. my family would let me know as adult that I had attachment problems when I was young, did not recognize them always as my parents, would say things for the moment that made no sense and then it was as if I had forgotten it again.

In my dreams it has become something I am use to and so I am not like I was before when I wondered what the heck it was about. A guess I have is that I did not heal from bad stuff that happened in that life so I had to find a way to heal from it in this life instead.

I too have heard of planning the life with soul group members and that sounds nice but I have no memory of any of that :)