Sorry you have it so bad. I remember one time when I in months advance felt, knew someone was to die on a particular day and I prayed for God to protect my family and friends and who ever I could come to think of but it happened anyway to someone else that time but still there and still connected to us and it was a disaster and I blamed myself as if it was my fault because I had not thought it could have been that person in particular, that I must have forgotten someone in my prays. I was a child then.

I can imagine if you have so many predictions and knowings/thoughts that this has by now led to a sort of anticipation anxiety regarding this, also like a drop on your head like a billion times and then that billion time one feel one can't take it no more. Perhaps it is best if you combine some sort of treatment for anticipation anxiety. It is important you understand that you are not causing this by your thoughts, it is not your fault. I understand that sort of nervousness that comes out of nowhere, that is my sign, when I know. Not just that example above, lots of them, but I learn it was combined with someone I was connected to being in trouble. Also during a pregnancy I knew as I felt death and no other way out long before I suffered a natural miscarriage. I feel the same death or coldness or nothing can be done feeling at other times when that has been the outcome and nobody else knows it, at the time.

If you balance yourself out, if you get your sleep, even more so, if you are not afraid of your own thoughts and know you are not causing it I am hoping your nervousness will go down. Then like me you might or will then get this sudden nervousness temporarily and only when someone you are connected to is in trouble. I would also - as I know you feel and worry for your sister so much - try to place a mental barrier, wall and this I know is very hard and you most likely like I have done and still have to do discipline yourself.

I also used to have a fear that if and when these sort of thing happened it was a sign that I was going down the same path as someone in my family that was seriously mentally ill and I was doing my best to shut it out and also I would experience especially from a psychopath as a boyfriend (and on all the signs he was a psychopath as it turned out) that I would be punished for it as he got aware that I was right, and I couldn't explain it. I know the feeling you just want to curl up and hide and not have it. There is a way that you can live with this and not go nuts with it, but you need to separate, I think, the anticipation anxiety you have about this, the anxiety in general, and the gift in itself because right now it seems to me like a mix bag. There are ways to work with anxiety, steps to do.

You also have to understand that your type of "sudden nervousness" which is exactly how mine has always appeared too, I know just what you mean, can actually be worse than the one who is in sudden danger, for instance, is having it.

I did not know it then but my first love/my first ex, when, if I was in trouble, years after the break up, he would feel it so bad. He would tell a friend that it was worse than if it happened to himself. In one of these examples I was simply "out" and I had no pain and did not feel I was in no danger, as they were working on me, and I later came to and everything turned out alright, but he was apparently, and at the time nobody knew he was right, going through hell because of this at the place he and his friends hanged out. So I don't know if you can think of it that way, but hoping you can, that it may be worse on you than the one going through it. That may not always be the case naturally but if it is things that are meant to be they are meant to be and these people signed up for it then long before they were even born and the outcome of it is suppose to be for some good reason even if we can't see it right now.