Do you have a map? By that I mean are you following a particular tradition and engaging its practices? What's your level of desire and dedication? What's your motivation? What's your expectation?

Concerning it being too late...

I dropped religion in my teens and that was in the 70s. I wasn't seriously religious before that either though spirituality was always in the background. I didn't get serious until a dozen years ago. It's not too late.