[Sojo5]

Hi everyone and thanks for letting me join this forum :)

I had past life memories when I was a child. Quite strong ones and I remember saying weird things to my mum like "I want to meet my old friends, but I can't remember their names" or "I want to go to where I used to live, but I don't know where it is". It was just very strong and vivid.

When I was 15 we went travelling and we went through a town and I knew my way around. I knew how it had changed, which buildings were there that didn't used to be there etc. The weirdest thing I've ever experienced happened in this town. I walked up this hill and it was a heavily populated area with lots of houses. Then as I walked I suddenly, for a fraction of a second, saw the whole place as just field. It literally lasted about a tenth of a second where all I saw was field, then back to being a place with hundreds of houses. I later asked a person who knew the area well when the houses were built. He said they were built in the 50s and 60s. I then asked him what was there before the houses were built, to which he replied "it was all field".

Anyway, I'm in my 30s now and I don't really have memories anymore, the way I did when I was a child. However, one thing does not go away. I've always known I was shot and killed in my past life and that I didn't want to die. I know it happened too quick for me to really understand what had happened. I get pains in my left upper back/upper chest area and I also have a birthmark on my upper left chest. The pain doesn't bother me though, but there are images that haunt me. I keep getting this strong image in my head of someone aiming a gun at me and shooting. If I'm stressed or overwhelmed about things it can get very strong and make me worried. If I'm out at night and someone walks towards me or behind me that I can't see the face of I get the image in my head clear as day.

I'm terrified of doing a past life regression as I'm scared of what I might experience. I've tried deep meditations and they can help in the short term. My question is, does anyone have any experience/knowledge about this? I don't consider myself to be very spiritual or enlightened in other ways. I feel I know deep down that I have these memories simply because of the way I died - that it was a traumatic shooting that I didn't know was coming and that I didn't want to die. Can anyone give me any advice to get past this? I'd be very, very grateful.