yes this was unexpected...i am glad you feel you have been answered. who knows maybe the ex is up to something, he is on the other side so...

i never knew the ex's reason why he did not want anyone there. something happened to me when he said what he said and he had cross the line with me. so first he said it was over, and then express as if he is gonna think about how it was gonna be from now on, as if he was the boss of me and that I would just go with that. I do think he was sure of my love for him so I don't understand why he wanted that kind of proof for it, but what he said was nothing short but abuse. To make me feel real small. I did not deserve that.

anyways, I was surprised to hear he had kept all my stuff and our memories together now after his death and it was later left to a relative and i don't want it back so..and she wish to keep it...i thought he would have thrown that out long ago. i was also for first time told the stories they had of how he had talked about me to family, friends after it was over. he had put me on a pedestal. (and here i had felt small) and had seem very sorry, and very angry when hearing i had met someone else, as if he had hope we would get back together one day. he had said we were still friends and act as if we still had contact but we really didn't. as he got sick later on (depression or bipolar) he kept going back to the time when I was his in a nostalgic kind of way. then again he had proposed to his last girlfriend but she had not taken him seriously and said he needed to get his head screwed back on before that would happen, there were sort of on and off. even if he was dealing with depression or being bipolar he was very good at his job, even if he and his boss would butt heads now and then. He would say he still missed me when he heard the news of my (new) pregnancy through someone else and he wanted to be let know if everything was alright with me, and he would not forget this (even if he had a new girlfriend in his life) but keep asking, following me from a distance I guess through others. So there were lots of things I did not know.

I have lived and perhaps still do live in a home where paranormal stuff happens but now days only flickering with the electricity (even though we have had that checked and it should not be able to act like that). So first I thought the computer was tripping when suddenly playing Bee Gees song My Only Love on its own. No one had listen to it before and it should not come of by itself. But too there has been times when the radio starts on its own in the past etc, etc (long story).

so anyway the song my only love played with black background and the white lyrics, and it was happening around the time with the ex thoughts of death and so on. I can not say if it was just a flip on the computer or paranormal, or if I read too much into the lyrics, but still the lyrics of it did effect me. However I was not his only love, he had several girlfriends beside me so I don't wanna go look-at-me-kind of thing. It does strangely remind me.
link (if you like) https://youtu.be/duzopPreoJs?list=RDduzopPreoJs

it is true - I did love him once, but I have moved on from those in love feelings long ago. He is part of my soul group. But I believe there is not only one person in everyone's life that is the one fate - that one can not find love after that. I did find love after that and he too is I believe part of my soul group. My love for him was different, because he was different, and we as soulmates share most likely a different past as well. We have our story.

About time I have to tell you this. I have not understood how it can happen, but this was the experience I had: So I was in a room when all of a sudden i see a child appear and this child was in between the worlds but i still saw the child very clear how it look like and then the child was gone. if i should guess age around six.

later I had a child. This child looks identical to the child I saw. How this could be when the child was not even thought of yet and certainly not born yet I don't know. I could not foresee that the child would look like that, a total mix. This vision of the child came after I had gone through the miscarriage.

If the other side is flipping around with time like this - and like you wrote - it is impressive :)