Hi Lumen and welcome here!
My opinion...
For anyone it is a huge deal to give up
all the things you did!
All at once cold turkey? You are a better person than me.
How about once a week having greasy pizza?
And the next week one beer.
Am I bad for saying this, I dunno....but even in Weight Watchers or other programs
like that they say one day a week ...eat whatever...
it calms the mind and it's cravings to know it will get ice cream on Sat.
And, btw, I think you are amazing.
God loves you alot to have made this turn around for you, imo!
What a complete 180.
And as encouragement...all those things that brought you distraction or happiness...
are all temporary things...it is better to aim for that Thing that lasts forever...and it
is worth it.
It is a different more refined 'high'...like the delicate pleasure of smelling a
rose on a beautiful morning outside...
compared to the rush of online war games or porn...they are different...
so it will take some time
for your appreciation of little things to satisfy your heart and mind.
Also, I do think finding an interest takes your mind off these 'distractions'...ha, I don't know why,
but I just got an image of
Clint Eastwood, he mean anything to you? Anyway...
What does he do in his spare time?
He creates...he accomplishes..he digs into his passion...he gets lost
in his work, ya know?
Just my 2 cents.
Take care
