There is only now and change that's it , what we call time is just a concept overlayed on top of change inorder to make you think time is real when you "experience" it but what you are actually experiencing is change , likewise the past is a concept and so is the future neither one exist so then what you say you are doing is just a byproduct of the imagination but in this world people feelings are far more valuable then the truth is and help is only accepted so long as it allows a person to keep their neuroticism
So my attempt at helping you by pointing out your mental imbalance will be viewed as shaming and bulling even though I only say what I say inorder to help it doesn't matter because good is bad and bad is good in this world. Just my opinion of course.