....Hi... And Thank you for being so honest in explaining your not being in good place..... With regard to "hummingbirds".... They are just so very beautiful... And they have obviously figured very much for you in many ways .... And I'm guessing that spiritually , they probably may/do/ will.... Figure , not only for your good self, but for many others, for many reasons ....Which is lovely... The only thing I would like to say is this .... Hummingbirds have the ability to fly backwards ... So PLEASE , never be under the impression that if you "see" this , they are "leaving" you... That would be an "illusion"...